I'm in my final semester of school doing my preceptorship/capstone. I'm on an ortho floor and really enjoying it. I received report on a PT who was not a risk for fall... Later in my shift I went in to check on him and he was getting up. He got up slowly and stumbled to the side and fell. I couldn't do much it all happened so fast, I got to his head and protected it as best as I could. I couldn't stop the fall though my hand was crushed into the wall forcefully. I went to the ED they splinted it, met with an ortho 2 days later and it wasn't broken just a bad crushing injury.
Tonight will be my first day back and I'm paralyzed with fear. I'd do anything before going to my floor tonight... I feel hopeless and extremely fearful.
Both my instructor and preceptor think that I did the right thing, and that it wasn't my fault but I just can't get beyond this. I almost feel like I have PTSD I keep reliving it in my head.
How do I get beyond this?