I am a brand new nurse with a little over a year of experience. I just obtained my BSN this year and I am extremely grateful for all of my accomplishments. However, I am a bit dreadful about how nursing is going for me. I started working my first nursing job per diem because the job did not have any full-time openings. Along with me and 4 other new nurse graduates, strange enough this rehabilitation hospital hired new grads per diem to save money all the time. I also managed to land a job at a longterm care facility but the position was also per diem so I figured both jobs will equal up to a full time position. I have worked both jobs for over a year. I know some of you are wondering why I did not go to the hospital as a new graduate. In fact, I applied to all of the hospitals in my area. I interview for a nurse residency but because I did not have a BSN and was not enrolled in a RN to BSN program they chose to find another nurse for the position. Now that I have a year of experience I am ineligible to go into a residency program.
I am depressed wondering if I will ever land the right job. Covid19 has impacted my per diem jobs tremendously resulting in me being canceled and without work for weeks at a time. I’ve never worked in such an unstable way. Before nursing I worked at a assisted living for 9 years, prior to that I worked 5 years in home health.
I recently took on a home health nurse position full-time because I am in desperate need of work. But is not as fulfilling as I would like for it to be. Im doing a lot of traveling even in inclement weather. And I'm not sure if this would hinder my chances of getting into a hospital even more. I would like to be in a continuous learning environment and I would like exposure to more clinical nursing responsibilities. Im starting to wonder if nursing is the right career for me.