So need some help here..
.....graduated NS, waiting to take boards, landed a job, nights (I am less than thrilled about that, but it was all I could get). I still have my old job, a pool non nursing position at a local hospital. I haven't quit that one yet, I was thinking of keeping it "just in case" the RN position didn't work out or nights didn't treat me well, since I have never worked nights (again NOT looking forward to that:lol2: ). In true new grad fashion, I have been experiencing overwhemling anxiety r/t beginning my new career and switching to nights, and I know some of this is normal. Now today, found out I am PG, my first PG. I have benefits under my husband, I don't need to work full time for us to pay bills, so we could survive on my pool position. Also, my new job won't offer my maternity leave that soon so my job won't be secured if I decide to take time off. I just began general orientation last week and am scheduled for my first day on the unit next Wed, so total days employed is 4 so far.
So....what to do? I am already max stressed, not looking forward to a night position AND dealing with 1st tri probs. Also...need to focus on passing boards, so I'll have that stress too for now. Still have my other job, can work as many or as little hours as I want, when I want. I know as long as I pass NCLEX and get my license that I will be OK to postpone working as an RN till after the baby is born. Would that be bad? Would employers look down on me for that? I worry that I would lose all my knowlege.. But how horrible would it be to go to my manager in my new job and tell her about the PG, aplogize, and decline the position now? In my mind, better to be strait up and tell her before she begins orienting me than be secretive and misleading? I would want time off around when the baby comes and I won't have maternity leave yet... My fear is just that I'll begin working, have to quit my old job, be totally stressed, not be sleeping, and then get sick or have comps of PG, and have to take time off, etc.....should I just stay with my same old, same old for now?? If I am strait up with my manager, do you think I would be eligible for rehire? Seems like they would want me to quit sooner rather than later, right? I may be moving out of state within the next few years anyway so to be honest I don't even know if I need to keep that hospital as a future option..
There have been other threads about this exact situation but the others either had to work full time or did not have bennies. Not the case with me so your advice may be different.... Any advice you can give would be greatly appreciated! (especially all you nurse managers..how would YOU feel?!)
jo jo