Old, made mistakes, looking for a miracle

[twallum]

Hey everyone, my name is Marcee. I am new here and just love this site, even though I am having a heck of a time navigating it to get the best use out of it. Anyway, graduated nursing school in 1994, sat for boards knew I would fail and did. Husband died, 2 kids, and I went on a destructive path. 2005-2006 from love and support of friends, once they found out I had a degree in nursing they said you sit for that test again, you did the hardest part. So, took a Kaplan review in November 2005, have dozens of disks with questions and reviews, and a trillion review books, and was tutored for about 2 months, which was disaster due to the inability of the tutor and their time schedule. I have worked hard to get to the point of taking the NCLEX on July 24th 2006, well needless to say I failed. The test was from Pluto and all I did seemed frugal. I am 50, going back to nursing school is not an option at all, I work full time and my nervous system is shot. I felt like I did not deserve to even walk down the sidewalk for this whole week after the test. What that journey and experience did to me mentally, physically and spiritually was cruel and unhealthy. I am lost and confused. I will sit again, even though i do not know why, how do you keep studying, what do you study, the test had nothing to do with anything I painstakingly tried to bring back to that dusty old nursing brain back from 1994. I have bought the Saunders that Suzanne4 suggested, I bought it obsessivley and compulsively in hopes of a miracle. I can re-test in 45 to 90 days. I am sick in my stomach, do not know what to do, do I let it die or is it a reality to get this license. I want this license, I am not worried about a job, I just want that license.

So thanks for listening and please feel free to give me your feedback and support

[bookwormom]

I see you are working full time, so I'm not sure this is realistic, but... I think it would help if you could work in a health care facility in some capacity-- as a unit clerk, CNA, etc. This would give some familiarity with current treatments, meds, etc.

But, you know, getting the license isn't the most important thing in life. It's more important to take care of yourself and your family!

good luck, either way.

[goober4699]

Marcee, everyone here is just wonderful and you are going to pass that test. I know you will and when you finally do you are going to be a fantastic nurse! Don't get down on yourself or I might have to beat ya up LOL! Love ya, see you when you come back to work :welcome:

:balloons:

[subee, MSN, CRNA]

Marcee, everyone here is just wonderful and you are going to pass that test. I know you will and when you finally do you are going to be a fantastic nurse! Don't get down on yourself or I might have to beat ya up LOL! Love ya, see you when you come back to work :welcome:

:balloons:

Macee, feel free to PM med whenever you have an area that confuses you.When you're that anxious, its difficult to separate the horses from the zebras. I would be glad to help you figure out the critical concepts that you absolutely most know from the other things that would be nice to know. Getting through the exam is kinda like going to a diet. There's a critical mass of life's problems that must be dealt with before you can allow yourself the claity to focus on a long term deal. Please feel free to use me as a recourse.

[Ms.RN]

how about rn refresher class? i think this class is a med/surg review and it will bring your skills and knowleges up to date.

in my nurisng school, theres 50% failure rate. thats how hard nurising school is. but you made it!!! be proud of yourself!!! :yelclap: :mortarboard: :monkeydance:

oh, i forgot. most community college computer labs have nursing sofware programs that nurisng students can use and practice taking tests.