Ok I am FREAKING OUT

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Ok.. So I have done a total of 5 drug tests... everything has been grand, all negative. Until this one. I don't know why. I did have to take an antibiotic for a UTI. I mean.. I think I tested about a week after I was done. I wouldn't think I would test positive for anything.. I didn't even think to fax them the prescription. Which If I can remember correctly it was Keflex. I was googling it and it said possibly cocaine. Idk. I am freaking out. The other thing, I tested after I left the gym, but only made had 1 water bottle. Maybe not even that. How much trouble am I in?!?!?!?!

- I also emailed the leader of the CANDO program as I have emailed her in the past and asked how I need to correct this. I also just started a new job. I don't want to mess anything up. I am so scared.

Still no news and I did this test on Wednesday last week. Would they post it on my recovery trek for me to see? I check its not posted. Is no news good news?

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Still no news and I did this test on Wednesday last week. Would they post it on my recovery trek for me to see? I check its not posted. Is no news good news?

I've never had a positive with Recovery Trek, so I can't say. The blood test I took on Wednesday posted today for me online, but it wasn't positive. It's just hard to gauge lab turn around.

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Yes it will post on recovery trek

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WHAT! omg. Go strong and of course don't admit to anything you didn't do!!!! I took an abx and it said it could be positive for cocaine, also never tried. But it didn't come up, so whatever, but I was waiting for it. I am feeling the same way. I don't want to do this anymore or know what to do anyone. I am still waiting for my PETH test results from the monitor officer (MRO) who I paid I guess $50 to .

I was on Cipro for a UTI and it popped positive for Amphetamines/methamphetamines for a pre employment screen. It was also positive for benzo's. They sent it out for confirmation. Everything was fine.. funny they never even asked me about the benzo's. I Guess this place must realize nursing makes us all a little (or in my case..A LOT) nuts.

Also... OP mentioned she had soy sauce.. that's on the list of No-No's. It has alcohol in it.

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Still no news and I did this test on Wednesday last week. Would they post it on my recovery trek for me to see? I check its not posted. Is no news good news?

Usually it takes longer (for pee anyway- with my lab) for positives or invalid/flawed screens. I just went through 2 weeks off pure hell waiting for a result . I had to email a copy of my COC to my lab contact to check if they received it. All she could tell me was it's still in testing. I was freaking the **** out cuz I had just eaten some meatballs at my new job that I later found out had 6 shots of Rum in it!!! It finally came back as flawed test. Which of course they won't tell you what that means! A few days later they switched it to negative. I've had a few flawed tests and an invalid.. they never changed it before.. they just canceled the test.. and kept my money!!! I still don't know what happened. I think when it takes so Long to come back it means they are backed up on their confirmation testing cuz there is no way a test should take 2 weeks to complete. But they don't give a rats butt about us losing our minds with worry! It ticks me off cuz they can take their sweet ol time to result it.. even though we are paying for their services- regardless of it being forced upon us.. we are still paying a lot of money for their services. But don't you dare be a day late paying lab fees or they immediately suspend your account!

Just another way we are treated like we are scumbags!

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Yeah, if they want honesty they ought to think about dumping the atmosphere of fear and coercion. Why would you tell the truth to these blood-suckers. Honesty isn't rewarded and as a result you get a bunch of weekly nurse support groups full of platitudes and BS and (I'm sure) Pollyannaish monthly reports where the world is SOOO much better because you are sober even if you have no money and these idiots won't let you get a suitable job.

That who program of rigorous honesty thing is for the voluntary members of recovery not for us prisoners

Those self reports are a joke! They ask for your sponsors first and last name. What happened to confidentiality?! I never put it down. And this crap about what are you doing in your leisure time and are you doing service work, whatvstep are you on.. A) it's none of their business B) who cares!! I wonder what would happen if you put how you really feel or that you spent the last 3 months parked on the couch watching The ID Chanel..or you have learned nothing new in the last 3 months about your recovery. I'm sure none of us are dumb enough to put the truth down.. but I often wonder if that would mean more piss tests or longer time in the program. Do they even read them? I was just a month late sending my reports in.. whoops.. my monitor never even noticed.

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Ok guys. Update. My results came back negative on my PETH test. God is obviously looking after me. They called me and told me it was trace amounts, & what otc products do I take. I said Listerine. I do in fact use Listerine. But I will stop. I had amother normal drug test done thursday and it thankfully negative too. I have had such a heart attack with this stuff.

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Yessssssss!!!!!!!! So many of us were rooting for this to be the outcome. The naysayers might go well you..... but okay, I think that was established a long time ago. Nobody should have to go through the mind games that these programs force us to endure. Not only is it not conducive to any semblance of recovery, I personally think it borders on torture. You've definitely gotten a quick, hard lesson in what these programs are really all about.

Nonetheless, take a deep breath and go forward from here. We will all get through this. {{{{{hugs}}}}}

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Agreed. So now it says "excused " next to the positive and my normal drug screen . & the one I did yesterday was also negative. Thank the lord. And thank you guys. My cando leader also said that if I do get another positive it's considered a relapse. Like ok.... also, she said she did believe me when I told her I wasn't drinking. I was like um... no you didn't lol.

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I already figured out long since with these people that anything said does not hold water. Get it in writing (email or whatever). I don't think I've actually had voice contact with my CM in nearly 6 months and I prefer it that way. I've gotten bullied by them enough that I stand up for myself. I keep meticulous records and don't trust any of them any further than I can kick them. After everything this unethical program has put me through, there is nothing that will change that.

From here, my advice would be to do the same. Get a file box and keep every last P test receipt. Copies of every last report. Screen shot of every last Recovery check test result. Kill trees with all the paper if you must. If you have to have a phone conversation, record day and time. I know this sounds like overkill, but as you've already figured out, most people associated with these programs can't be trusted.

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Ok guys. Update. My results came back negative on my PETH test. God is obviously looking after me. They called me and told me it was trace amounts, & what otc products do I take. I said Listerine. I do in fact use Listerine. But I will stop. I had amother normal drug test done thursday and it thankfully negative too. I have had such a heart attack with this stuff.

Wow, that's the best news possible. I know you are feeling relieved.

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YAY YAY YAY!!!! I am so damn glad you passed. Know this though you are on their radar. Be careful!!!! We are all rooting for you

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