ok I had the same pt for 3 nights in a row. She had issues w/ blood loss, on day 2 received 2 units prbc. Crit went from 20 to 23. Afternoon crit on day 3 was 26. I call the resident. He said "Ok, thanks" and that was it. So I do my work for the shift. We were all working over-ratio d/t high census.
That specific patient was feeling great. Her color was good, her vs were stable, everything was good, she was up and walking. I took off her order for d/c in the morning and all was good.
So fastforward to today. I have the day off. I just get a call from one of the nurse supes. Apparently a doctor came over and wrote an order FOR A BLOOD TRANSFUSION at 1800 AND DID NOT TELL ANYONE. I am nuts about checking my charts and I don't know how I missed it. Said dr. apparently said that he couldn't find a nurse so didn't tell anyone about it. Ok right sure. That MIGHT be true since we all were over ratio and running around like lunatics. But I saw no red flag, no stat anything to indicate something had to be done. i DO check my charts at least once a shift and more as needed.
The patient, when informed around midnight or so by the next shift that she needed a transfusion, said that she had not seen nor spoken to a doctor at all in the evening. No one had told her about it, and she ultimately refused the transfusion.
She was fine, left in the am as planned, no harm done. That was the bottom line.
I was told "don't beat yourself up, don't lose sleep over it." Ok sure right. I told my supe that I of course accept responsibility for my part in this, and I will do whatever they need me to do, but at the same time, a blood transfusion order is a lot different than an order for tylenol or something, and the resident really should have said something to ANYONE and she totally agreed and said communication really takes two people.
Here I had this woman three nights in a row, spent lots of time with her, worried about her on my off time, trying to figure out why her crit had dropped and celebrated with her when it started going up. I thought I did really good last night with five couplets and one being a fresh-postop.
I feel terrible...
...just now supe called me back and said its the resident's fault. Reason being, I checked my charts all at the beginning of my shift and hers had the discharge order. Supe said that since I planned to d/c her, and that the resident's response to the crit was "ok thanks" AND that a crit of 26 is not so bad and we normally don't transfuse for 26, that she is bringing it up to the director as the resident's lack of communication to the nurses. She said she also called me back to tell me I am an excellent nurse and that she knew I'd be beating myself up about it and I should stop.
Ok so how do I stop? I missed something. I asked her if I was in some kind of trouble and she said no. I told her I'd do whatever I have to. But I am bothered by the fact that I let my patient down, even tho the patient doesn't know. That is what bothers me.
I feel awful.