I need some advice. I've been working as an RN for about a year and a half. I have been on Med/surg/tele floor for a complete year and prior to that I was at a LTC. I'm worried my anxiety is going to get to me one of these days. I haven't had anything tremdously horrible happen to me...however, there were days where we were understaffed, had a heavy load, or patients that went down the hill fast...Everyone tells me I am a great caring compassionate nurse. My supervisors and co-workers I work with respect me and are willing to help me when moments arise where I don't know what to do in difficult situation. I do enjoy what I do, however, the anxiety is getting worse and worse. I have tried to pin point where the anxiety is coming from and I can't. I have a great supporting husband and kids. Yes, I do work night shift, but I've been managing it fine for a year now. I have good co-workers. I have a good salary. But everytime I am off for a certain amount of days and come back for the first night my anxiety is horrible. I can't eat anything, I'm nausead, I am constantly running to the bathroom with an upset stomach, I can't sleep or rest...I have nightmares about it. I get jittery and pace the house...the food I try to eat all tastes funny....and I just get so worked up that on the way to work I end up crying...over nothing really. I am not usually emotional person. I thought that with experiance and more knowledge I'll be able to brace my anxiety...but I see nursing is a constant learning experiance. I see other nurse smile coming into work...calm relax...enjoying life outside...but I count down hours and minutes before I head out back to work. I know this is not healthy. Please advice if anyone had this happen or what I could do to get rid of anxiety.