Sorry you feel so bad. I feel exactly the same. I have struggled and worked my butt off doing long, unpaid clinical hours, tried to pay off study debts quicker, and just feel I am getting absolutely nowhere. I still don't have a permanent nursing position after nearly 3 years. I just renewed my registration for another year, and wonder if it was worth the money. I have to go back to agency work to survive, and have just enrolled in more study, but I just feel completely disheartened re it all. I have to pay MORE money for more checks, ie: police clearance, and to re-do CPR, etc. It seems to get more qualified, you DO have to sit in front of a computer - whatever happened to getting more training with hands on care? I am so sick of all the professional requirements we have to uphold, but people in other professions can talk to and treat customers how they like. I was astounded by how many rude people there were in my own home town when I returned here not long ago, and customer service? What a joke - it's practically non-existant.
If the government made shop asssitants and other trades people pay for their licenses and renew CPR every year and pay for it themselves, they might appreciate us a bit more and all the money we have to pay to continue nursing!
I don't know what to say - try applying for jobs in other nursing fields.
I myself will do a bit more agency work - if that doesn't work out, I am giving up nursing altogether. I always said I would give it one more year - and that year started 2 days ago, so this is it!
Hope you feel better.