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jnette has 10 years experience as a ASN, EMT-I and specializes in Hemodialysis, Home Health.

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Wow. I am so touched. I don't know what else to say. I know that I disclose too much about myself to people, sometimes too soon and it has caused me lots of problems. My kid alters were forced to keep secrets for so long that when we don't tell people about us, we feel like we're hiding and sneaking. My therapist has been working with all of us on the concept of the difference between secrets and privacy. We can and should have boundaries. I have to continually tell myself/selves that we have the right to privacy and ownership of our own mind, but still I persist.

However, on the other side of the coin, the healthy part of this is that I want people to know about me. I want DID to become known and as a result also the horrendous abuse that children undergo everyday cannot be denied. As long as no one knows a person who is DID, the world will continue to believe that it is rare or even non-existant. I want people to see that I am not a freak, and can live a functional, happy life. Also, by disclosing, you also meet important friends that you can support or who can support you, so that we don't have to live in isolation, feeling like freakshows. Already through this thread, I have found two.

So, I will continue to work on the healthy balance between privacy and disclosure, but I will never be ashamed of who I am and will continue to educate people about trauma/dissociation, and living with any MI.

I thank you for your great appreciation and encouragement.

Severina

Emphasis mine.

You are SO right on the money, Severina.

More power to you. I wish you nothing but continued success, along with love, genuine friendship, and freedom from fear.

You already have all you need within yourself. :kiss

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i for one, am not coping well...i have fibromyalgia...accompanied by chronic depression....i wouldn'r rule out ptsd although it has not officially diagnosed...i worked mental health for yeasrs and i know all of what you are supposed to know about mental illness but being on the other side of the coin is a rough thing...i also work in hospice...and i don't believe that has done any good for my depression...i love the hospice philosophy...i love my patients....i am well versed in hospice and find comfort in giving others comfort as their loved one passes through the final stages...but the intense hours they ask....if i could work 40 hours that would be fine...but iam salaried....and they ask more and more so that overtime need not be paid to hourly part timers...if i didn't need the insurance...i would be part time and it would be wonderful....i love the jobs....its the management demands i can't handle....

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Liddle Noodnik has 30 years experience and specializes in Alzheimer's, Geriatrics, Chem. Dep..

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Oh look, a mental illness dating service! (on the right with the ads)

Gee maybe THAT's what I need - a BOYFRIEND! ha ha haha hahahahah ha haaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh............... sigh... :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:

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Liddle Noodnik has 30 years experience and specializes in Alzheimer's, Geriatrics, Chem. Dep..

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i for one, am not coping well...i have fibromyalgia...accompanied by chronic depression....i wouldn'r rule out ptsd although it has not officially diagnosed...i worked mental health for yeasrs and i know all of what you are supposed to know about mental illness but being on the other side of the coin is a rough thing...i also work in hospice...and i don't believe that has done any good for my depression...i love the hospice philosophy...i love my patients....i am well versed in hospice and find comfort in giving others comfort as their loved one passes through the final stages...but the intense hours they ask....if i could work 40 hours that would be fine...but iam salaried....and they ask more and more so that overtime need not be paid to hourly part timers...if i didn't need the insurance...i would be part time and it would be wonderful....i love the jobs....its the management demands i can't handle....

kit kat, are you the wonderful kat I met before on this site?

regardless - God bless you! xo Time for you to nurture your inner child :balloons:

Corny, but it's TRUE!

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I went through years of depression and multiple hospitalizations until someone had a brainwave and thought "sheesh, I wonder if an antidepressant would work?" (well, duh)

Anyway, I used to have dreams that I was working my shifts without legs and trying to keep up. Also had dreams that I had to pay for my therapy by working (which was true) but I had to balance working while I was admitted to the hospital on the same floor and not let anyone know I was playing both sides of the fence.

Anyway, what ended up happening was that I was hallucinating one day while admitted to the hospital. I remember very little about that day except one old lady repeatedly coming up to me and asking where I worked. Well, turns out she was on the board of the hospital where I worked, and it also turns out that two months later I got the first poor evaluation of my 6 years at that hospital....related you think?

So no matter what I NEVER reveal what meds I take or my history. I'll even lie on physicals, whatever. I need to protect my livelihood

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I am a Tech in a busy Emergency Room, and have found that most of my co-workers and even our manager are on some form of anti-depressants for anxiety and depression. There was an article I read somewhere that stated most people that suffer anxiety/panic attacks are very intelligent people. I believe that statement is true, but as we all know MI does not discriminate and it can disable you and alter your life if you allow it to take over.

I struggled with panic/anxiety attacks twenty years ago when being physically abused and nearly killed by my ex-husband. The episodes lastes about six months, and I went to my PCP and he prescribed valium. I was able to relocate to a safe place (away from the ex)and took the valium for about two weeks and never had problems again. But I can remember it being a very dark and scary time for me and my whole family.

It all comes down to educating ourselves about mental illness and understanding the reasons behind it. Sure, I know that many MI's are hereditary but also know that several are caused because as young children we are not taught positive coping skills when dealing with stress. Educators think as long as children are taught math, reading and writing that is all they need to excel in the world to be productive citizens.

Sorry for the long post, but I would be honest about what medication you are taking if working in the medical field. You would probably be surprised to find out that 85% of your co workers are taking something too. There is no shame in getting help and taking meds if needed, but it is doing yourself an injustice to suffer in shame and fear worrying about what others think and how they will judge you.

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hello

 

i was wondering if its possible i can talk to someone in private who have suffered depression. thanks

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How do ya'll handle license renewal? The states I've lived/practiced nursing in have verry specific questions RT mental health. Do you fully disclose and provide statements from your docs about your competence or???

To be honest, fear of living under this kind of 'microscope' with a hostile BON has prevented me from dealving into my depression/anxiety issues. :o

Dang!

what state do you live in??!! Remind me to never move there.

I live in Michigan and no one has ever inquired as to my mental health background. I think that is discriminatory. Do they inquire as to physical limitations as well? I think I would be writing to them and/or my state congress about that. Thats horrendous! :angryfire

Severina

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i suffer from depression...had a horrendous marriage...and being out of that...it is now my own profession exacerbates it...feel free to p.m. me any time...it's been a long battle....

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lovingtheunloved has 12 years experience as a ASN, RN and specializes in LTC, home health, critical care.

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i for one, am not coping well...i have fibromyalgia...accompanied by chronic depression....i wouldn'r rule out ptsd although it has not officially diagnosed...i worked mental health for yeasrs and i know all of what you are supposed to know about mental illness but being on the other side of the coin is a rough thing...i also work in hospice...and i don't believe that has done any good for my depression...i love the hospice philosophy...i love my patients....i am well versed in hospice and find comfort in giving others comfort as their loved one passes through the final stages...but the intense hours they ask....if i could work 40 hours that would be fine...but iam salaried....and they ask more and more so that overtime need not be paid to hourly part timers...if i didn't need the insurance...i would be part time and it would be wonderful....i love the jobs....its the management demands i can't handle....

I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia as a teenager. I am thouroughly convinced that I never had it. I think that my physical problems were a manifestation of my emotional problems. I get maybe 5 hours of sleep on a good night, I have a very poor diet, and I work constantly. There's no way I could treat my body that way and have that illness. My problems never went away, I just use denial and workaholism to deal with them now. How healthy.

That's not to say that I don't believe fibromyalgia is real. I know it is. Just wasn't what my problem was.

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NurseCard has 13 years experience as a ADN and specializes in Med/Surge, Psych, LTC, Home Health.

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A little late but I thought I would chime in...

I deal with depression and generalized anxiety disorder. I took Paxil all throughout nursing school, and then a couple of months after I graduated, I decided that I didn't need it anymore. Well, I did okay without it for a few months but then I started having a lot of problems... starting really losing my cool at work, couldn't get it together enough to call the doctor whenever there was a crisis... couldn't handle crises, period... and things started getting bad at home too. I resisted it for a long time, but I finally had to go back on the Paxil. It did wonders.

My problems are probably minor compared to others, though.

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Liddle Noodnik has 30 years experience and specializes in Alzheimer's, Geriatrics, Chem. Dep..

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A little late but I thought I would chime in...

I deal with depression and generalized anxiety disorder. I took Paxil all throughout nursing school, and then a couple of months after I graduated, I decided that I didn't need it anymore. Well, I did okay without it for a few months but then I started having a lot of problems... starting really losing my cool at work, couldn't get it together enough to call the doctor whenever there was a crisis... couldn't handle crises, period... and things started getting bad at home too. I resisted it for a long time, but I finally had to go back on the Paxil. It did wonders.

My problems are probably minor compared to others, though.

You are SO FORTUNATE that you found something that works!

I'm glad that you realized what you needed to do, some can go on and off them prn, I'm not one of them ...

Take care!

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