Hi all,
I am so glad that I found this board. I spent all last night reading posts and have already learned tons!!!! You are all great and supportive.
I have been an RN for a year. I work on a med/surg floor. Lately I have been feeling very bad about my capabilities as a nurse and my decision to be one. After reading many threads I think I should toughen up a little and consider myself lucky. I found out out ratios are great (4:1 by myself, 6:1 with my own CNA, 7:1 with an LPN. We have a charge nurse that does not take patients. We work 12 hour shift 3p-3A. The ratios are the same for both shifts). I make $21 an hour.
Sounds good I guess. My main problem is anxiety. I go home every night worrying about every thing I did and wondering if I made a mistake. My anxiety has caused time management problems. I am constantly double checking things over and over and it slow me down. I feel like my patients are not getting good care if they have me and would be better off with a better nurse. I have such low self esteem right now. I do not know what to do. When I go to work, my anxiety level is so high. I am always afraid I will find out about a huge mistake I have made. I just do not know what to do. I started off great a year ago. It just seems to be getting worse. I regret my decsion to be a nurse. I am just afraid I can not cut it. What do I do? I am so confused.