:heartbeat"I am a new graduate with my BSN and have failed the NCLEX twice. The first time I had 234 questions, I prepared using ATI, studied everyday for six weeks and failed. I have test taking issues as it is and the anxiety really got to me. The second time I had 75 questions, prepared with various books, ATI again, and did some of my friends Kaplan questions. I went into the exam positive and when the computer shut off I was so happy, felt good and was sure that I passed this time. I was so confident! Well, today I found out that I failed for a second time. I have a job and everyone is very supportive and encouraging but I feel like such a failure, I hate going into work as a PCT (I got demoted) and I feel stupid and am very discouraged. I do not know what else to do. I am at a loss for how to even prepare for this again. I am stressed and emotionally drained I dont even want to take the test again, I feel like giving up
Hi sweety! first of all, I would like to say my heart goes out to you. I'm sorry to hear that you didn't fail. I know how you are feeling right now, for I am in the same shoe as what you're going through. I know it must be overwhelming, and I know exactly how you feel. But never give up my sweet. Keep trying.
I too failed twice, I found out last fri. I didn't made it through the pearson trick and finally got my eval. report last saturdday. It has only been a week and I still feel low, stressed out, and emotionally drained like you. But I'm not giving up, and so do you. I also used ATI on my first take along with my saunder's and kaplan online. I didn't made it. I took it last year. I finally revamped myself and tried to study again for my 2nd take this time I only use saunders and found out last week I didn't made it. I was heart-broken. I really felt I was really, my computer shot off at 75 and I felt comfortable and at peace, just like what you said. I thought I was ready. And 2 days later I found out i didn't made it either. I was devastated. But after a 5 day of pouring out my disappointments in tears. I've finally found peace with myself...and refiled for my 3rd try for the boards last wednessday. I also purchased the ncsbn online course and i've found it to be very helpful, i'm utilizing it right now. And I just got my package in the male for my prentice hall's nclex-rn by pearson and so as my nclex-rn exam cram cds by pearson as well. I just findly finished mapping out my new study plan and hopefully it'll aid me in my study. I will still be using my saunder's and lacharity for my nsg. content as well. Hopefully, I will be able to get my ass in the gear here anytime soon. I know you must feel down right now...and it's fine..let it all out. Be sad...be ******. Be mad. But remember you are not alone, and you must never quit the fight. Stay positive my friend, even if the light seems dark and everything seems to negative...stand up tall, and never quit. Let's both study are hardest and be ready for our next battle. I am here for you and I feel your pain and disappoint. And I'm here to encourage you, it's okay my friend...our time just hasn't come but it'll be soon. Never doubt that we will be RN's soon enough. Keep believing that! Okay!
Here's a poem I posted in one of my thread, hopefully it'll inspire you as it has inspired me.
BY Clinton Howell
When things go wrong,
As they sometimes will,
When the road you've truding seems all uphill,
when the funds are low, and the debts are high,
and you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't quit.
Life is queer with a twist and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
when he might have won had he only had stuck it out;
Don't quive up though the pace seems slown,
You might succeed with another blow.
Success is a failure turned inside out,
the silver lingina a tint of the clouds of doubt.
And you may never can tell how close you are,
it may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're at your hardest hit,
It's when things seemed worst,
that YOU MUST NOT QUIT!
Don't ever give up.