hey everybody & good morning. i'm new but i just wanted to let you know what an inspiration & truly a caring community you guys are that carries people through their toughest times.
a little of my story...i've got 6 wonderful kids (3 of my own, 3 stepchildren) & my years of nursing school were not easy. i worked fulltime up until my 4th year & those last 2 years were absolute hell. my husband (now ex) became an alcoholic & we divorced (after being put in a mental hospital, stalking me, taking my kids away, locking me out of my house, trying to run me over, & finally ending in a shoot out w/police & is now in jail), my son, who was 6 at the time, was sexually molested, my father had a massive heart attack & airlifted to a hospital 300 miles away & i had to go down there to help my mom, my grandpa had a heart attack & 5 months later, died of renal failure (god rest his soul, i miss him so much) & that's just to name a few.
but the one thing i wanted was to finish nursing school, & in may, at the age of 27, i graduated. but i knew i still had that one big test to take. i found this forum while trying to find study materials & have read it religiously everyday, the stories of heartbreak & happiness & i felt for those who did not pass their nclex & elated for those who had.
well, it was my turn on wed the 30th. the morning started out good, made it to the testing site 1/2 hr early, my boyfriend came with to support me (& even sat in the car the entire time i was testing, gotta love him), & some guy asked me out outside of mcdonalds (& he was even cute!) & had to shoot him down (i love my bf dearly & no one could ever compare), while my bf went to the br. i took my test, & it shut off at 95! i walked out knowing i didn't pass! but i had a glimmer of hope, checked all that day (nothing), got up early the next day & checked (nothing) & by noon, i knew i hadn't passed, & i was a mess. my dreams had come crashing down on me, my 4 yrs of hard work for nothing, after all i had been through. my bf came home for dinner & actually left work early to come home & comfort me. but then, i was reading this forum, & beginning to feel better after reading all the stories of people who didn't pass the 1st time & i knew i'd be able to do it again. i thought, i'm going to check one more time...and it was there! i had passed! and i started crying all over again, but this time because i was so happy!
i justed wanted to tell you all how great you guys are! the support that you give each other is phenomenal & having people like you make things like this so much easier!! again, thank you for helping me through a very tough time, even though you didn't know it. now i'm going to start spending some much needed time with my kids, because even though i've been through a lot, they've suffered the most not having their mom around!!:1luvu:
gemfaith , rn
p.s. sorry it's so long