Living in fear

MichelleRN34, ADN, RN · Sep 27, 2013

I've been so anxious this morning cause I noticed a UDS test I took on the 25th has not posted. I thought they posted within 24 hours. I hate living in fear even when I know I am not doing anything wrong and I'm doing what I'm supposed to. I'm going to turn grey with as much worrying as I do. It's from hearing these horror stories of participants that are completely compliant and being disciplined for testing errors. That's my biggest fear right now...

My test results are never posted...

TXRN2 · Sep 28, 2013

it depends on which test they are running- i could always look up my results- one took more than a week- i freaked out- called them- they told me it was because of the panel that was being run. i,like you,knew i was totally clean & sober- but was still always very nervous.

SouthernPoint · Sep 28, 2013

I've been so anxious this morning cause I noticed a UDS test I took on the 25th has not posted. I thought they posted within 24 hours. I hate living in fear even when I know I am not doing anything wrong and I'm doing what I'm supposed to. I'm going to turn grey with as much worrying as I do. It's from hearing these horror stories of participants that are completely compliant and being disciplined for testing errors. That's my biggest fear right now...

If you "Know" there is nothing to be "Truely Anxious" over then don't put all that un-needed stress on your body.

I have had my share of "Horror Stories" with the Florida IPN program, but it's not from the UDS's. I don't even check my results.

Just do what you need to do and don't add any extra stress on yourself. It's only going to make your time in the program feel 20 times longer.

Junebug59, RN · Sep 28, 2013

a nurse in my support group had a UDS come back with 1000 on the etg panel. she swears she is compliant. she's been in IPN for 4 years without a single positive. I tend to believe her as do most in the group including our facilitator. also, she was at work the day she was supposedly drunk with all the alcohol in her system. her boss and many others have vouched for her being sober. so, yes, i'm nervous that there will be human or machine error in the lab and i'll get screwed one day. she had to do an eval that of course costs hundreds of dollars..... they waited 2 weeks to call her and notify her of the results so of course she couldn't do the blood test (peth) test. It almost seems that they set you up to fail...... I hate living like this too. always wondering if ''big brother'' is going to come in and steal my life.....

Life lessons · Sep 28, 2013

Well they finally posted around 9 pm. It just says result (negative) and the creatinine level.

I was on my way to pick up scrub bottoms when I was freaking out. My hands have never shook so much ever. All that was racing through my head was (omg, what if, god forbid, I won't be needing these scrubs cause something horrible has happened with my results and I will have wasted money and have no job to pay my bills!). Now you can see why I'm going to go grey. And my poor fiance has to deal with me and i feel so bad.

Im so careful with my program and have made several folders and check off lists, alarms, I'm always cautious of what I eat, drink, and products I use or am around. I know I should just be calm when I know I'm doing everything right, but it's easier said than done. I guess my self defense kicks in and I'm preparing myself for the a absolute worst.

sallyrnrrt, ADN, RN · Oct 3, 2013

FEAR = FALSE EVENTS, APEARING REAL ! There is enough stress in recovery, choose your battles.

do not use for today, and only deal with today, today.

it gets better, the steps do work, and eventually you will be living the steps, instead of working them :cool: