Im just so tired of school

[nishey94]

I feel like Im going insane. Im so tired. Ive changed my major like 5 times and finally my senior year of university I decided to do nursing, and am trying to finish my last two pre-reqs. Still that means two more years of schooling. I feel like im burning out.

Though I like nursing all I really want to do is go backpacking around the world. But I don't have money, just debt. Even after graduating, Ill just be working full time to pay off my debt.

I just don't see the point in life. We exist to go to school so we can work for the rest of our lives until we die, we exist to survive. I really wish I hadn't existed at all. I feel my whole life I keep looking forward to the future. That after I finish school I'll get to accomplish my goals and dreams. But its not happening.

I feel like I'm running and the exit is just getting farther and farther away. I feel like quitting everything, taking a few things and just leaving. My mom says if everbody else can do it, I can do it, I can finish school and get a job. I feel so tired of living, of getting up every morning and going about my day. What should I do?

[bostons]

I can't pretend to have any idea what you are going through, but if you are genuinely having feelings that life is pointless then I would strongly suggest you go to the mental health/counseling center on your campus asap.

Also, I gotta say, I'm a little disappointed by some of the responses in this thread. It's really not that hard to show a little empathy when someone is having a rough time.

[FolksBtrippin, BSN, RN]

I found a counselor at the campus health center who is really helping me. Please go there first, it sounds like you are really struggling and losing perspective like I was.

There isn't anything wrong with taking time off from school.

Backpacking around the world sounds exciting. I know a lot of people who found ways to travel around the world without money.

A friend of mine joined the air force and went all over. Another friend joined the peace corps and spent 2 years in haiti. She lives in Mexico now.

How can you bring your hopes and dreams to the present day?

[Horseshoe, BSN, RN]

I feel the same way, why should we live to work? I just want to enjoy life.

Very few people have the luxury of not having to work. But they can still "enjoy life."

[cadrea]

Nishey94 let me start by saying that you are not alone in your feelings. Secondly, I'm a bit taken aback by some of the callous responses I have read to a young person struggling with life. My advice to you is that you take a real hard look at what a happy life looks like to you. We often make career choices based on our parents desires and not on what will ultimately make us "complete." I'm telling you this from personal experience as a person in his 40s who has had a successful 20 year career in business but who has spent much of it unfulfilled. Today I'm back in school to be a nurse and help others (although I'll make less money). It sounds like a cliche but if you live long enough you'll figure out that a higher income won't necessarily make you happy. Based on what you wrote I'm sure you're young and therefore have time to figure out what you want in life......take the time and seek to be happy before wealthy. I know that goes against conventional wisdom but ask yourself why so many people with money commit suicide, have horrible relationships with their family and in many case are always looking for something new to peak their interest. Anyway, if you move forward with nursing, which I think is a great career......don't discount becoming a travel nurse. Perhaps becoming a travel nurse will get you to see the world while having a great career at the same time. Always remember that life gives do overs each and every day so there's no need to get overwhelmed by it...simply figure out a different move and engage as many resources as possible as you decide what that move will be. I wish you the best and seek positive people to ask advice from.

[Horseshoe, BSN, RN]

I was also going to suggest travel nursing, but wasn't sure if travelers can easily find work in other countries. In any case, the OP would need to get some good experience under her belt first, imo.

[ItsThatJenGirl, CNA]

I'm tired of school, too. I've been trying to get my degree since 2009 (on and off, because finances). So seven years now.

But I want a good, secure retirement for my husband and I, so this is what I'm going to do. I have two more semesters before I start nursing school. So three more years. There are days that I want to throw my hands up and run away. But I'm an adult, with responsibilities, so I do what needs to be done.

I also make sure to take care of myself - not just physically, but mentally, too. Which means seeing my doctor regularly and staying on top of my depression and anxiety. Some days are certainly harder than others, but each day that I climb into my bed at night is a win.

Best of luck to you.

[SentinelTruth]

Perhaps this website could be of help, www.gotquestions.org

[nerdy student]

When you read thus, if you get to it, take a couple of deep breaths and let the stress drain, even if it's just for a second. Feel all the love and support that people here and in your family will be sending you!

I'm in a similar situation . I did 5 years of school got a degree where I was not able to find a steady job, mostly unpaid internships and prospects of being a Barista for the rest of my life. I was at the point of giving up, it's so overwhelming. Jobs, school, debt, I was newly married, and had two deaths in our family in a year. I took a step back, I took some time from school and realized, I was not satisfied with "existing " . I wanted to live! I felt alive thinking about being a nurse and that is when I decided I needed to get my butt in gear and do work for my goals. Nothing in life is handed to us( unless people are just that lucky;)) you'll have to work at whatever you do. Make it count.

Please please please, go speak to someone about how your feeling. You need someone who can help you cope with thus, and we can only do so much. Reach out to family and frieds, that's what they are there for!! :)

Chin up, hang in there!

Surprised by the lack of empathy from mostnposters. I guess you all have forgotten what it is like to struggle... Must be nice.

[cadrea]

Bostons I am in complete agreement with you! This isn't the first time I have seen these types of responses from people who have supposedly dedicated their lives to helping others. How is it that people who have been trained to pick up on subtle signs of individuals "crying for help" can respond with such cold and heartless manners. I don't know if you are serious in your words, and I pray you aren't but WHEN you successfully become a nurse, make sure you show everyone the empathy you were trained for. Hopefully you're becoming a nurse for the right reasons because clearly not everyone has. Regroup and know that rough times are only temporary and we all have them.