so the semester is over. depending on what i got on my final on monday, my grade will probably be a mid B, which is not bad at all.. however, this wont mean anything if my instructor decides to fail me in clinical!!! I'm very afraid of this. She's expressed many times that my performance is unsatisfactory to her standards and I've tried everything to try to prove to her that I am ready to move on to the next semester. I dont believe I do anything so terrible that I deserve to fail. Of course there are things I need to work on, but everybody does. I have never put a patient in harm and I do everything I am asked. This is her first semester as a clinical instructor and I feel like she is judging me unfairly against other students in my group who have prior healthcare expierience (CNAs). Of course some of these thing are going to be difficult for me at first, because Ive never done them before! But I've asked the other girls in my group and they say I'm doing fine. And the instructor tends to play favorites a lot.. There is a girl in the group, who is one of my good friends, who is borderline failing her theory part of the course. on the first paper her original grade was a 75, and mine was an 81. I was a little upset with my grade so I went to talk to the teacher about it.. nothing really came of it. the other girl went to talk to her about her paper and the instructor said "Oh, I didnt realize a 75 was not a C. Let's see if we can add some points to make this a passing paper." So she did, and gave the other girl an 82!! Now, if my paper was 6 points better than the other girl's to begin with, how did the same paper magically become 1 point better than mine!! and the really crazy thing is that she emailed the girl and told her not to tell ANYONE at the school that she changed her grade... she is also friends with this girl on facebook, and has allowed her to sit in the cafeteria of the hospital to study for her theory test during clinical time.
I broke down during our sterile dressing checkoff test and told another teacher everything, but I asked her to keep it confidential because I think if my teacher finds out she will hate me even more.. the other instructor suggested I go to the dean, but I dont want to unless she definitely fails me.. the other girls in my group said they would go to the dean and vouch for me and even the girls who are her "favorites" said they would tell her how my instructor plays favorites and even though they are on her good side, they dont think its fair.. but they all dont want to tell anyone until they get their grades because they are afraid she will fail them too if she finds out they said anything.
sorry, im just venting. hah. but does this sound weird to you guys? I just dont know what Ill do if I fail and have to wait until next fall to repeat the semester. I've been pretty much a wreck for the past three weeks because I know its coming. everyones clinical evaluations are today and I received an email from her stating that mine will have to be delayed until tomorrow... thats got to mean something bad!
she failed me... we are supposed to have appointments for clinical evaluations in which she critiques our performance and we receive a pass/fail grade. well, everyone else received appointment times for tuesday and i recieved an email from her that said "your appointment will be delayed until wednesday, i will email you the time sometime today[tuesday]" i didnt recieve another email until 11:45 PM stating she would call me at 9:00 AM today. she called at 10:45, and said "theres no easy way to say this but you have failed clinical." i asked if theres anything i could do and she said apply for next year, so i hung up on her.
i left a message for my advisor, who is also one of my professors, i suppose ill write a formal letter addressing all the unprofessional things shes done and give it to her and the dean.
i just dont know what to do, its so unfair. i dont know if i can go through it again.
I know this all to well. I seen it happen to so many people around me
UPDATE! I wanted to track down this old thread and let you all know that I am finishing up my preceptorship (AT A DIFFERENT SCHOOL) in about 2 weeks and graduating!
Somethings that make me smile a little bit:
1. That girl whose paper grade got changed in her favor, failed theory that semester.
2. None of my classmates from that school that I know of got jobs where they wanted. I see lots of facebook updates about how they cant wait to get out of their understaffed LTC jobs, and "Why wont any hospitals hire me?!"
3. Ive got a couple interviews lined up at the hospital i work at currently as a PCA (thanks in part to my school helping me get that pca job and helping me network).
okay, i may be coming off a little snarky.. but i am actually so glad that woman failed me, giving me a better opportunity. And although im graduating a year and a couple months after i initially planned, im graduating all the same. :w00t: i hate cliches, but maybe everything does happen for a reason!
Congrats!!!! This is definitely a great story. Did anything ever come of your letter in regards to the instructor receiving a meeting with the Dean?
hah, no. i made a meeting with the dean, told my side of the story, cried my eyes out and all she had to say to me was "this is what everyone says when they fail.", dropped a tissue in front of me and told me to leave when i felt ready as she walked out of the office. that was precisely the minute i decided i was taking my money elsewhere and applied to different nursing schools instead of trying to gain readmittance there.
another screwy thing they did was say i couldnt get back into the RN program until fall 2013! and when i asked about getting into the LPN program for the next semester they said they had openings but my GPA was too low d/t me failing clinical. (a 9 credit F took a huge toll on my gpa). BUT that girl who got the paper grade changed, had a GPA even lower than mine but was magically allowed into the LPN program the next semester. I swear she was doing some sorcery or something. No idea why they loved her so much and hated me! Oh well, good riddance!
and when i asked about getting into the LPN program for the next semester they said they had openings but my GPA was too low d/t me failing clinical. (a 9 credit F took a huge toll on my gpa). BUT that girl who got the paper grade changed, had a GPA even lower than mine but was magically allowed into the LPN program the next semester. I swear she was doing some sorcery or something. No idea why they loved her so much and hated me! Oh well, good riddance!
Best wishes!
SydneyJo1
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I agree, you need to fight this and fight it HARD! Good luck to you!! I hope they turn this around for you.