I am at a crossroads and desperately need the advice of other nurses. I need to give background briefly, and forgive me if it sounds like a soap opera: As a younger woman I married a man 25 years older than myself and we started a family (two children). At the time things were good for my husband financially--or, at least, good enough for us to live decently without fear for our next meal. I devoted myself to mothering our children.
Of course, I knew that eventually my husband would age and I would be going back to work. This happened a bit sooner than we expected when he hit his 60s and his work dried up. I went back to school and earned a BSN and got licensed as a registered nurse at age 40. I obtained work as a med-surg staff nurse in a large, big city teaching hospital about one year ago.
Unfortunately, over the years I had developed a condition diagnosed as borderline systemic lupus. By "borderline" I simply mean that I am positive for 4 out of the 11 diagnostic criteria--which technically qualifies me for the diagnosis. However, my symptoms are not life-threatening, although they are debilitating--sometimes extremely so. (I could also technically be diagnosed with fibromyalgia, although it's unclear if this is actually a separate condition from the lupus.)
Although we wondered if it would be possible for me to handle the kind of job I am in, we certainly hoped I would because my husband has been unable to find work and as he ages it looks less likely that he will.
I find myself in a unit where I am assigned 6 or 7 patients per 12-hour shift instead of the five patients I understood I would be assigned (and under conditions where I really should only have four in order to be able to administer actual *care*). My "12-hour shifts" always drift at least to13 and very often to14 hours to enable me to finish the paperwork, charting, etc. and turn the patients over to the next shift.
I have become a ghost/zombie in my home. If I am not at work I am in bed. My children (now 9 and 11) no longer know me. My husband simply cannot do all of the house/child care under these circumstances. I am suffering mentally as well as physically, as I previously defined myself in large part in terms of my role as a mother. It is one thing to go to work for 40 hours and spend the rest of the time with your family. It is another to spend no time at all with your family because you are too ill from the stress and exertion of your job.
I fully realize that I am not alone with this sort of problem. I know that people are leaving the profession for these reasons all the time.
I need to quit this job but I am frightened. It's not just a question of "the economy" and the difficulty of finding work ("`Nursing shortage'--what's that, a new dance?"). I just don't know where to look for work at which I could likely remain. I don't know what sorts of jobs there are out there for registered nurses that would not rip away every ounce of reserve energy I possess.
I admit to being naïve in the work world. I worked before I was married, but it is a different world now. I obtained this job right out of school by being recruited. My question is: How do I find a job and where should I look? I know that many of you have had to search many sources for work, often for many months or even years. I also know that many of you are experienced nurses who have worked in a number of different types of jobs. I need some kind of motherly/counseling help.
I need a job that, first, allows me actually to administer care; and second, that is not so stressful, with such long hours per shift that I feel like I've been run over by a truck during all of my off-hours. I hear about all sorts of options: residential care centers, hospice, home nursing of all types, etc., but don't know how to find these jobs.
I know that I am risking ridicule by posting this, but I am at the end of what I can endure and don't know where to turn. My husband is trying to help but his knowledge/understanding of nursing and nursing issues is limited.
I feel really bad for you. I just started in Med Surg, I'm still with a preceptor and it is exausting work. A great place to learn but not someplace I wold want to be long term. Suggestions for you are psych, substance abuse I worked in that area and its easy work. Still 12 hours 3 days a week but not stressfull. I did my preceptorship at the NICU thats also a very laid back setting, most of the babies are there because they are " growers and feeders". Meaning they are born healthy but are premies.
Home health income is very unreliable and here in Florida they dont give benefits. Another area is school nursing and hospice. As to were to find jobs try indeed.com. Great free national job searching site. That is were I found all the jobs I applied for. Also if there are psych facilities in your area go to yellowpages.com to get those closest to you and call them up. Most places dont advertise there jobs. If all they have for no is per diem, take it. When something full time comes up you will be first in line.
Good luck. You've put in your required hell days in Med/Surg. Time to move on.
Many have suggested school nursing. Many states require a school nurse certification (I looked into that but was not able to go back to school at this time). Check with your state.
I agree with the above poster--you've paid your dues in Med/Surg. Move on if you're not happy. Good luck to you.
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Hang in there. God hears your prayer... talk/unload to Him for He cares. God bless you and your family.