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i got numbed all over when i learned that I did pass... and I'm telling you, awesome, great, wonderful and all the superlatives are an understatement!
the first three times that I tried to take the test, I knew that I was gonna fail. I wasn't at all motivated to be a nurse. it wasn't my choice. i didn't want to join the crowd of RNs and wanted to be something else. at the same time, a lot of things happened which may have also contributed to my lack of preparation.
time came when i finally bumped my head on the wall and realized that I studied 4 years, blood sweat and tears, to finish BSN, and all I have to do to get started is to get a license. one of my motivations probably is the financial reward (i'm broke! haha), but more than that is the fact that I have finally decided to be a nurse, to work with patients and to join the crowd of life-savers.
So on friday the 13th (lucky day i guess hehe) i took the test with confidence and waited for the results with the kind of feeling that I didn't have the past three times, and 4 days later (that was quick, as compared to 2 weeks of waiting for the dreaded 'failed' results), i couldnt believe what i saw on the board of nursing website.. my name with an RN attached to it. the next day, i got my license. what a sigh of relief!
I cannot wait to "feel" that feeling and see my name with RN attached. I will feel like a load or should I say a ton of bricks is off my shoulders. I will be taking it for the 4th time as well. I hope I have that "different" feeling. I went through the thought process the other day while driving that you know "what r you doing you went to school and bullshitting around" hellooooo. Did you do anything differently than you did before to prepare. I don't feel like I can prepare anymore however I guess I could do more questions because I do lack in that area. I envy you I cannot wait for the day to see that with my name. I actually getting used to seeing "fail". It's funny though the 3 times I have taken I kinda knew that it was going to be failed, I just didn't have that well maybe feeling ya know! Congratulations now you can move on, that is great!
smilee1217
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Congratulations Alchemist!!! I have to be honest, your story sounds exactly like mine. I have failed the NCLEX twice and now, I am so ready to start working. I almost took my studying for granted but now I'm so determined to pass this exam whole heartedly!!! I hope and pray that I will finally pass this exam like so many of you!!!
Congrats again and good luck to all of us who still have our faith in the hands of the NCLEX monster :) hehe