I need a little support right now

[reipie]

I am so sorry for your loss. I can see that you are hurt deeply by Rooby's passing and that shows also that you must have been a good mommy to him. He will always be with you. Please don't be so hard on yourself. He knew you loved him.

Rei

[magz80]

oh Mary, I'm so sorry to hear about your loss!! I'm a huge animal lover myself and I know how much it hurts to lose a pet. I lost my dog of 15 years last year right before finals. It was a horrible experience to say the least. I remember trying to sit there and study for my exam while fighting the tears. I wanted to just toss the book across the room and be alone, but I knew I had to pull through it. I knew that if I stopped studying and let my emotions take over, I would be hurting myself even more in the end..... kind of like a snowball effect.

Please don't beat yourself up about this. I know it's easy for all of us to say, but everyone can see how devastating this was for you. Your post shows what a caring and wonderful person you are. We need nurses like you!!! It's normal to question yourself after such a tragic loss because your emotions get in the way and you start thinking irrationally. We all believe in you! Please post again and let us know how you're doing. You are in my prayers....god bless

[jnette, ASN, EMT-I]

Oh, Mary.... ((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))

I can't even begin to imagine how you feel.

Please know that beating up on yourself won't change a thing, nor bring your sweet Rooby back to you.

Try to keep only those wonderful, loving memories, and how he brought such joy to your lives. The little feathered friend is now a freeflying spirit... he's ok.

He'd be proud for you to bring one of his little friends home to lavish him or her with the love and friendship you showed to him. :kiss

[S.N. Visit, BSN, RN]

I'm so sorry for you. Hopefully time will help.

[MryRose]

Thank you everyone for opening your hearts to me. I appreciate the care you've shown me very much. You have helped me begin the healing process.

Quite an interesting thing has happened that I think is a pure Blessing.

My husband and I spent last night talking about our memories of Rooby and the pets that we have lost over the years. We concluded that each "baby" has been adopted by us because that really needed someone to spoil and love them at a time that we needed something too.

We decided that we will get another bird when one comes along at the moment it is meant to be. This helped us both so much to know that all of these babies are blessings sent to us. Some blessings are longer than others, but each is sent to us with Love.

Right after we had this conversation we both decided to try to get back into some normal things we do. I got on my laptop and decided to look up birds in my area that might need adoption. Incredibly I found one! A Pionus Maximilian that needs a home because his family just had twins and they can't give him all the attention he needs.

I emailed them and today they called. We are having them come to our home on Saturday to interview us and see our home. I am excited but at the same time was feeling guilty that it was too soon and what would Rooby think? Right after I got off the phone I found several of his feathers in my entryway! After his death I hunted the house for any sign of feathers and found very few and picked up all that I could find and saved them. Where these 3 feathers came from I can't imagine!! I am taking them as a sign from Rooby that he approves. He loved other birds and had a girlfriend that is a conure whose mommy brought her over to stay when she went on vacation. He used to sing to her!

I am still, and will continue to grieve for my litle Rooby. NO bird can ever take his place. Having another featherhead in the house will help fill this void in our lives that Rooby filled. He was such a little cutie and we will always cherish the time we had with him.

I'd appreciate any Prayers or Special Thoughts for our Saturday interview. I am so nervous and excited! This may be the Blessing that we are waiting for.

Hugs to all!

MaryRose

[Mandarella]

Of course you have my prayers!

[Tweety, BSN, RN]

I'm sorry about the loss of your companion friend. Take care.

[NurseAnn08, LPN]

MaryRose,

I am so sorry for your loss. I saw your post last week on Tiel Talk and didn't have the chance to respond. Imagine my surprise when I saw it here also at AllNurses. I also have two cockatiels, Rascal and Freckles. Even though we've had them less than a year, I can't imagine how I would feel if we lost them. I know you are going through a very hard time. I think you could give any animal a good home--I can tell how much you care. Please know Rooby is in birdy heaven.

Ann

[MryRose]

MaryRose,

I am so sorry for your loss. I saw your post last week on Tiel Talk and didn't have the chance to respond. Imagine my surprise when I saw it here also at AllNurses. I also have two cockatiels, Rascal and Freckles. Even though we've had them less than a year, I can't imagine how I would feel if we lost them. I know you are going through a very hard time. I think you could give any animal a good home--I can tell how much you care. Please know Rooby is in birdy heaven.

Ann

Thank you Ann. I miss my little Rooby very much. He was with me so much, first thing in the morning, as I studied and when I go home from school. My husband has been extremely emotional about losing our baby. We went to the bird store to see when they might get some babies in and a darling cockatiel sang a song to him from his cage. My hubby cried right there... we both need a little bundle of feathers to love. They had no babies and the one singing was thier breeder who was not for sale.

That was Saturday and on Sunday I made him go look at a 6 month old Goffin cockatoo that was for sale. He was sooooo mad at me, but when that baby was put on his arm he melted into a puddle of jello! We have brought "Sassy" home to help heal the wounds and bring some feather love back into our home. She is a love sponge and tho we still grieve for Rooby, Sassy is helping us remember the good times that come with having a FeatherHead in our home.

Here is a link to some pics of Sassy

http://www.picturetrail.com/gallery/view?p=999&gid=6409952&uid=706252&members=1

Hugs!

MaryRose and Sassy