I need a little support right now

Yesteday i ws rusing to get to school and left the door to my cockateils cage door open by mistake. Rooby got out and was killed by our dogs. They did not try to eat him, they carried him aroudn and I suspecthe had a heart attack.

I feel horrible and worthless. I was always so careful about him and his cage. he spent most of the tme with either myself or my husband..... and we were careful to close his cage when we didn;t have him.

I am just drowning in guilt and wondering how on earth I can become a nurse if i can;t even keep my baby bird safe. He was like a liltle child to us.... learning to talk and played cute little games.

I have a micro lab at 2 today and I don't know how I am going to make it. To say I am devestated is not even deep enough.

Thanks for listening, I know this is out o the realm here, except that I am looking fro some moticvation to continue with school right now..

thanks:crying2:

[traumaRUs, MSN, APRN]

Am so sorry for your loss.

[wannabenursetx]

I am so, so sorry for your loss! I know you're devastated about this but this was an honest mistake that anyone could have made, especially in the rush of trying to get out the door on time. I know it's tempting to do it, but please don't beat yourself up about this. It in NO WAY has any reflection on your abilities to be a good nurse; if anything, this shows the level of compassion you have! Just know that I'm crying with you.

[Carlos Casteneda]

I am so, so sorry for your loss! I know you're devastated about this but this was an honest mistake that anyone could have made, especially in the rush of trying to get out the door on time. I know it's tempting to do it, but please don't beat yourself up about this. It in NO WAY has any reflection on your abilities to be a good nurse; if anything, this shows the level of compassion you have! Just know that I'm crying with you.

we must always remember that a genuine mistake is not negligence we all have the right to make a mistake

[Mandarella]

i am so sorry. pets are like children to alot of us. i know you are devastated. but i keep in mind that everything happens for a reason. not always fair but i believe when your time here is up, it is up. you were always careful with the cage except this time. that's because it was your pet's time to go. i am not a religeous person but i am very spiritual. here is a poem i like to keep in mind. you will be a wonderful nurse. you are a vey commpassionate person. i will keep you in my thoughts...

people come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. when you figure out which it is, you will know exactly what to do.

some people

come into our lives

and quickly go..

some people

become friends

and stay awhile...

leaving beautiful

footprints on our

hearts...

and we are

never quite the same

because we have made a good friend!!!

when someone is in your life for a reason, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. they have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. they may seem like a godsend, and they are. they are there for the reason you need them to be. then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. sometimes they die. sometimes they walk away. sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. what we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. the prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

when people come into your life for a season, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. they may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. they may teach you something you have never done. they usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. believe it! it is real! but, only for a season

lifetime relationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. your job is to accept the lesson, love the person or people involved; and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships, and areas of your life. it is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

[MryRose]

Thank you everyone for your support. It mean a lot to me. This has been exceptionally hard for me to deal with. Your support is helping me so much.

Mandarella your kind thoughts and beautiful poem have touched my heart. I too feel there is a reason for all things. Thank you for reminding me that Roobys life here was with purpose. He will always be with me in my heart.

Thank you,

MaryRose

[llg, PhD, RN]

I am sorry for the loss of your pet. I've lost pets myself.

About it reflecting on your nursing ... As a nurse, you will make mistakes. Sometimes, a patient may suffer because of your mistakes. That comes hand-in-hand with taking responsibility for the well-being of another person (or animal.) You'll need to learn to accept that as a part of professional practice ... learn from the experiences ... and move on.

None of us is perfect.

ddd

[coolatta19]

I know exactly how you feel. I left my son's hamster cage to accesible to my 2 dog's, and when I arrived home, Wilson and Benji ( the hamsters) were nowhere to be found...I eventually found them in our basement...but by then my Golden Retrievers had done some not-so-nice things to them...I've lived with the guilt for years...don't beat yourself up for this. One day you'll be a great nurse...everyone goes some sort of mishap in life...Please take care!

[Plagueis]

I'm very sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved pet.

[MryRose]

Thank you all for your support.

I went to Micro and my classmates were very supportive.

I know there are going to be mistakes made and that my heart will be affected. Rooby was so very important in our family. We've had 2 kids graduate and move out on their own, and Li'l Rooby kinda took their place in our attention giving.

He was just so darned cute, cuddly and always wanted to go wherever we went. He even had a little flight suit so we could take him out in public without any worries about him getting hurt as it had a tether for when he sat on our shoulders. In warm weather he went everywhere with us and loved to ride in the car. All our friends would inquire as to where Rooby was if we had to leave him at home. He was a big part of our lives.

We will grieve , then heal and bring another "feather head" into our home. There is a reason for everthing and we will be ready for our next challenge.

Blessings to all and thank you again for your kind thoughts and words.

MaryRose and Rod

[Maisie]

I am sorry for your loss. I caused the death of my pet bird when I was 10 years old. It has been many years (I'm in my 40s) but I still think about it on occasion. Just focus on the love and care you provided for your pets through the years. Think about how their lives were enriched by you. Know that eventually all life ends. Many religious educators belieive that animals do in fact go to heaven. Jack Van Impe has a book on this and you can even see his recent broadcast on the subject on his website. I think it was presented two weeks ago at the beginning of his program. The website is http://WWW.JVIM.Com.

I picture your bird flying in heaven. God bless.

[mishayla96]

Sorry to hear about your loss as well but as the others have said, your caring and kindness shows through this post and I am sure that when you get done with school and find a job that office/hospital will be happy to have you around.

Thank you all for your support.

I went to Micro and my classmates were very supportive.

I know there are going to be mistakes made and that my heart will be affected. Rooby was so very important in our family. We've had 2 kids graduate and move out on their own, and Li'l Rooby kinda took their place in our attention giving.

He was just so darned cute, cuddly and always wanted to go wherever we went. He even had a little flight suit so we could take him out in public without any worries about him getting hurt as it had a tether for when he sat on our shoulders. In warm weather he went everywhere with us and loved to ride in the car. All our friends would inquire as to where Rooby was if we had to leave him at home. He was a big part of our lives.

We will grieve , then heal and bring another "feather head" into our home. There is a reason for everthing and we will be ready for our next challenge.

Blessings to all and thank you again for your kind thoughts and words.

MaryRose and Rod