Ugh the last two weeks have been CRAP!!! But, some good has come of it. I'll share some good, bad, and ugly.
This week, I have learned:
1. Lexapro is a hell of a drug.
2. My body will crash my brain after 7 days of insomnia, and I will hallucinate by day 10.
3. My spouse has the patience of a saint.
4. The kickback of a gun is nowhere near as forceful as it looks.
5. I'm good at shooting!
6. I may or may not have a job right now.
7. I never expected to feel so indifferent regarding my employment status. It feels revealing to me to realize how unattached I feel to it. Maybe my dislike for it has really grown that much.
8. I feel like the Boy Child has suddenly grown more mature and its freaking me out a little. I know he's in the pre-teen zone, but I'm not ready for this. I find myself checking in on him often and smothering him with mama love just to make sure my boy is still my boy. *sigh* This poor child is stuck with me.
9. If you tell them to stop building....
They will.
(I find this hilarious to an inappropriate degree.)
10. The A-Hole Dog only likes the dog park if she's on her leash. She also acts like she feels incredibly violated when another dog sniffs her butt.
11. Go to the following thread. Go to top comments, find on page, type "Robb Stark". Only do this if you are caught up on GOT. Also, only do this if you are not offended by politics, and if you do not plan in any way to come back here and blast me for sharing a comment that compares Trump to Joffrey and Balon Greyjoy.
12. I like my ellipses with 4 dots, just like I like my lights (THERE ARE FOUR LIGHTS!!!!). Farawyn, we can take this outside if you want....
13. The spouse and I owe so much money in taxes that I can't even. We changed exemptions when we got blasted by state last year. Didn't matter. We owe thousands to federal and the state we live in. As in, we owe thousands to federal and thousands more to state. Can't wait to see how much the state I work in swindled. I swear to the Bearded Commander Riker that we had more money on one crappy income than we have now, with me working, too. Maybe I need to not work during grad school. :\
14. I am so excited for grad school!!!
I know I'm forgetting stuff. Boo! I'll remember right after the edit window closes, I'm sure!
Specializes in M/S, LTC, Corrections, PDN & drug rehab.
My husband thinks I should just tell my employer I'm bipolar. No no no. I've tried to explain to him the stigma with mental illness but he says eff it!
I have no problem telling my employer I have epilepsy but I would *never* tell them I'm bipolar!
My husband thinks I should just tell my employer I'm bipolar. No no no. I've tried to explain to him the stigma with mental illness but he says eff it!
I have no problem telling my employer I have epilepsy but I would *never* tell them I'm bipolar!
My husband thinks I should just tell my employer I'm bipolar. No no no. I've tried to explain to him the stigma with mental illness but he says eff it!
I have no problem telling my employer I have epilepsy but I would *never* tell them I'm bipolar!
I have only disclosed at one job and it turned into a nightmare. After 8 months of positive feedback I suddenly found myself on the receiving end of undefined "concerns" from my employer.
I tried to prove myself but in the end I resigned my position. That was a big lesson for me.
You know, I hate taking this in a political direction, but reading about the thousands you owe in taxes, ixchel...
I only squeaked through by the skin of my teeth this year - got $20 back after you take both federal and state into account, and that's only because I had mortgage interest and some charitable donations to deduct - would have paid about $1500 otherwise. I already claim zero exemptions.
I am scared of what's going to happen around tax time for me if Bernie Sanders gets elected. He's my favorite otherwise, but he's got to get money from his plans from somewhere, and as I am a lot "wealthier" than the average American, it's probably going to be from me and people like me. IMO, everybody sucks this year, and I have no idea who to vote for.
The SSRI thing... depressed people are the people I feel sorriest for in my unit. They really do go bat guano crazy after being NPO for a while. None of that stuff comes IV, so if they're NPO, there's no taper, and the level of crazy and discomfort I get to see can be pretty intense. Someone has got to find a way to give SSRIs IV.
Sanders- We are going to have to pay taxes anyway. He is the only person who repeatedly addresses the middle class and their issues, and he is pro-union.
I have only disclosed at one job and it turned into a nightmare. After 8 months of positive feedback I suddenly found myself on the receiving end of undefined "concerns" from my employer.
I tried to prove myself but in the end I resigned my position. That was a big lesson for me.
I'm really sorry. Hopefully this will all change someday, when people realize that mental illness is illness.
I've learned I'm even more in love with Chris Stapleton after listening to his stuff with The SteelDrivers. Thanks for turning me on to it, RNator!
I've learned I may never finish my sports clearances!
I've learned that a kid who was sick last week at school has been haunting my dreams.
I've learned I'm intimidated by wound vacs. So, I'm going to ask for as many as possible in my HH job until I get over it.
I've learned after talking to another nurse on AN who just got a job at my old hospital that I'm very happy for her, and very much missing that place.
ixchel, I tapered Lexapro over 3 months and I still got brain zaps, euphoria and huge crash afterwards. It's easier to stay on.
(((((ixchel and Chaos)))))
I want to say it took me a little longer. I literally used an emory board and shaved off a little more every few days or more. On week 1, one pass with the emory board, on week 2, two passes. The first time I experienced those brain zaps it's scared me badly but I was able to avoid them by tapering very slowly. This was before the brain zaps were acknowledged... Fun times.
I've learned... that I've been very reckless with dots. I've been using dots with reckless abandon....
It seems many of us are not in a good place. I'm so sorry to hear that. Mental illness is exhausting for the person with it as well as their support (hopefully we all have at least that 1 person we can talk to).
Higher education can be freaking expensive. Choose wisely because even the best priced programs add up.
Interviewing at other places has made me realize how WAY underpaid I am, but the benefits are crappy elsewhere so it's a trade. Still not sure what I'm doing, but I've had 3 job offers in 1 week so that's good I guess. I can only realistically consider one and it's in LTC which I did not enjoy the last time I worked it. At least it's 12 hr shifts and hopefully only a year. This place seems nice and staffed well so hopefully that will help?
I hope everyone has a better week. Good luck to us all!
Specializes in M/S, LTC, Corrections, PDN & drug rehab.
I have only disclosed at one job and it turned into a nightmare. After 8 months of positive feedback I suddenly found myself on the receiving end of undefined "concerns" from my employer.
I tried to prove myself but in the end I resigned my position. That was a big lesson for me.
This is exactly why I refuse to tell any employer I am bipolar. But my husband would say, "That's their experience, not yours". He just doesn't understand how stigmatized mental illness is. They are fine with me having epilepsy, I get sympathy for it. But the moment you tell someone you have a mental illness, game over. It's not the same.
My husband thinks I should just tell my employer I'm bipolar. No no no. I've tried to explain to him the stigma with mental illness but he says eff it!
I have no problem telling my employer I have epilepsy but I would *never* tell them I'm bipolar!
De-lurking for a moment ... to yell out in agreement: don't do it!
I had a former employer find out I was bipolar when I was going through a tough depressive episode. She asked how I was out of sympathy, or so I thought. Stupid me, I was honest and told her I was bipolar. I went from stellar reviews (was even 'Employee of the Year' the year prior) to being forced out the door. It was awful. Nothing like making a depressive episode so much worse.
It was so long ago, thankfully I've made my peace with it now.
(((OC and Ixchel)))-I hope things get better for you both. I am also on the Lexapro bandwagon. I take it for mild depression and it also helps my IBS symptoms. I've had severe depression a couple of times in my life and my heart goes out to anyone with MI.
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My husband thinks I should just tell my employer I'm bipolar. No no no. I've tried to explain to him the stigma with mental illness but he says eff it!
I have no problem telling my employer I have epilepsy but I would *never* tell them I'm bipolar!