I feel soo bad

Chicklet2 · Oct 10, 2005

Thanks for the last post, your made my day brighter. Yah everyone is like you have the worst luck you should amost go and buy a lottery ticket and maybe you'll get lucky... one more night tonight, I guess we'll see how that goes. I'm scared to touch anyone...

Daytonite, BSN, RN · Oct 10, 2005

Actually, you ought to use that to your advantage. "Give me what I'm asking for, or I'll touch you." :chuckle

Chicklet2 · Oct 10, 2005

Yah, so I wonder what tonight will bring..... hopefully a great shift without having to visit the morgue.

Kristen_RN · Oct 10, 2005

Sorry that you had to go through that. I work in the ER, so I see people die all the time. But, I will say that it is so much different when it is your patient. I've helped on several codes, and it didn't really phase me any, but I've only had to code 1 of my actual patients. I was okay during the code...but after...I was scared to death. I couldn't believe that it had actually happened. Try not to worry about it so much. People die when their time is up.

Chicklet2 · Oct 11, 2005

OMG who would have thought, another one died.... so that takes me up to 4 in 4 nights. Thank god i'm done my rotation and I graduate on friday. Thanks for all the support.

deernheadlightsRN · Oct 11, 2005

Just wanted to lend my support. There was really nothing you could do about the deaths of your patients. We have to realize that death is a natural part of life. No one will ever know that better than we will. It doen't make it easier, but a fact of life. Stay strong.

perfectbluebuildings, BSN, RN · Oct 11, 2005

Just echoing the support of everyone else here... I hope you have some time off now, to re-group and rest a little bit! It sounds like you are working on a pretty high-acuity unit. Plus about that other nurse... no one can "know" when a pt is going to die for sure... and I believe that if it's your time to go, it's your time to go and nothing is gonna keep you here. You have been there for all of these pts at their very last moments that is an important part of nursing too. I say that but I know I would also be very upset if I were in your shoes. Have you been able to talk with anyone about what's going on, like a mentor at work or your family? Take care..

**RosesrReder, BSN, MSN, RN** · Oct 11, 2005

chicklets, sorry about this. I can only imagine when this happens to me if and when I become a nurse.

Hugs to you and good luck.

DianeS, RN · Oct 12, 2005

Chicklet2,

Oh my. So sorry to hear about all you have been through. :sniff: They say everything happens for a reason. Maybe somebody upstairs thought you had the compassion to deal with this. Keep your chin up. It does get better.

Smiles and hugs. :icon_hug:

Daytonite, BSN, RN · Oct 12, 2005

OMG who would have thought, another one died.... so that takes me up to 4 in 4 nights. Thank god i'm done my rotation and I graduate on friday. Thanks for all the support.

What a send off as your finish school and go into graduation exercises. I guarantee that you will never forget this experience! Now you'll have a tale to tell in the nurses lounge for the rest of your career. :chuckle Congratulations on completing nursing school. :balloons:

Chicklet2 · Oct 16, 2005

Thanks for all the support, it has really helped. I've talked to family and now I look back on it as a learning thing and it has prepared me for what is to come one day. I have had a week off and start my new job next week. It doesn't feel like I'm a real nurse yet. Thanks

RNinJune2007, RN · Nov 1, 2005

Well I just got off a night shift and seen my first deceased client.... I feel soo bad b/c I took him to the bathroom and told him to call when he was done, but I had this feeling in the back of my mind that I should stay, but was like he's fine. So i went and charted on a client and thought maybe I'll just go check on him. Well I went into the bathroom and he was on the floor face down. He passed away 5 min after. I feel like it's my fault. I should have stayed with him. He was 91yrs old and earlier that day he told the nurses he was gonna pass away in the night. Sorry I just had to get that outta my system.

Hey,

I read this a while back, but just learned about this "phenomenon" in class last week, so I am back. :)

Congrats on the graduating!!

It is called the Balsava Manuver... (it's so popular that they had to name it!). When they exert the pressure in the bathroom, and have some sort of (known or unknown) cardiac issue, and then release the pressure, their blood pressure rises rapidly. And this is why they die...