I feel soo bad

[Chicklet2]

Well I just got off a night shift and seen my first deceased client.... I feel soo bad b/c I took him to the bathroom and told him to call when he was done, but I had this feeling in the back of my mind that I should stay, but was like he's fine. So i went and charted on a client and thought maybe I'll just go check on him. Well I went into the bathroom and he was on the floor face down. He passed away 5 min after. I feel like it's my fault. I should have stayed with him. He was 91yrs old and earlier that day he told the nurses he was gonna pass away in the night. Sorry I just had to get that outta my system.

[midnightRN]

Isn't it the truth about that darn toilet! I had a patient who stopped breathing while on the toilet. We carried her back to bed, and a sternal rub later, she "pinked up" and resumed breathing before the code team got to the room.

The first death is probably the hardest. Not long ago I posted about another horrible experience. I felt like qutting too, and as though I wasn't cut out for nursing...hang in there, it gets better.

[Chaya, ASN, RN]

Yeah, well that is one of the worst experinces to get through, and you've got it behind you now (FOUR times!!!). Remember, they are your patient even when they die- you can still provide them your best care.

Oh, and when they say they're going to die that night, we believe them! I don't know how or what they are sensing but they're right on more often then not.