I am sitting at my desk, reading post on this site all day! This is ridiculous. I have a 4 hour math class to attend this evening and I can't wait to get there.
I truly HATE my job, I am burnt out. I wish I could quit, go to school full time and work pt time as a CNA. I have been working in the administrative field for way..... too long. I desperately need a change but I have about 3 years to go before i graduate.
What happens in the meantime, do I continue to be miserable and unmotivated. Sitting behind this desk makes me feel lazy and pointless. I wish I could join the other nursing students in this site! I feel very sad that it feels like an eternity away.
Has anyone ever watched the movie "Office Space" my favorite movie of all times. I feel like the character that Ron Livingston plays. He just doesn't give a damn anymore.
I don't mean to sound so ungrateful for my job considering there are so many unemployed these days, but I can't shake the feeling
Specializes in SNU/SNF/MedSurg, SPCU Ortho/Neuro/Spine.
i am crazzy too, my dogs look at my face then they get scared to even bark at me coz i look like Cr@p, i act like Cr@p i feel like cr@p, and basicaly i will be a huge cr@p untill i get passed microbiology next month!
Trust me, try to hold onto that desk job as long as you can as long as you can fit classes in around it. I started school when I still had a desk job and when I got home in the evening, I was not too tired to be able to sit down and read/study/do whatever it is that I had to do. I was BORED to TEARS at my job and hated it, but looking back leaving was a terrible decision. Once I realized that there was no way Id be able to keep that job and do night classes (seems like at my school the latest start time they offer is 5pm) I quit and foolishly decided to go back into waitressing. I did it before in college the first time and had a great time. Not so much this time. Maybe it was the restaurant itself, I dont know. But I wasnt making anywhere NEAR enough money (actually LOSING money with gas prices these days) and when I did get home, Id be so exhausted I couldnt focus on school. The money and hours (wasnt getting any) were so bad that I left. Im currently unemployed and will hopefully start working at my dad's office soon. Anyway to make a long story short, if I had been able to stay at that desk job and perhaps adjust my hours, you bet I wish I would have stayed EVEN THOUGH I was bored. At least you know that it wont be forever.................
I sort of feel your pain. I'm bartending Friday and Saturday nights and have been for over a year. I HATE it! It's not my scene anymore, and I no longer find it fun. I've been bartending/waitressing for more than 10 years now, and I'm sooooo over it. It used to be a lot of fun, before I had kids and "grew up". I started this last job when I got my real estate license thinking I would use the cash to fund my new career until it took off, but the mortgage market promptly flushed that idea down the toilet a month in. Things aren't so bad here in Houston, so I stuck it out, but unless you've been in the industry a while, it's still pretty tough. My DH and I decided this would be a good time for me to go back to school to follow my other dream, since I've got the bartending gig to pay for school and childcare, and I can go almost full time. Problem is, I can't stand the job. I don't want to be behind a bar anymore, and I like going to bed before 4:30 a.m., but it's the only job I can make enough in two days work to do what I need to do to get through school as quickly as possible. Here's to hoping the next three years fly by. Sorry, not very motivational, but at least you're not alone in your feelings.
Thank you everyone for your reply's. I guess I just needed someone to identify with my feelings. I will hang in there as long as I can work my classes around my job. A desk job does have it's perks at times, like yesterday when I was able to finish my math homework.
The bottom line is I am just ready to move on with my life and start a new career. There are times when the feeling is overwhelming and I need to vent. I feel very good that I am taking the necessary steps to make a change. I like school so far and doing extremely well. I passed English 101 with an A and I received a 100 % on my first math test and hope to repeat that for my second math test tonight.
I hope everyone accomplishes their dreams and goals and thank you again for the support.
Thank you everyone for your reply's. I guess I just needed someone to identify with my feelings. I will hang in there as long as I can work my classes around my job. A desk job does have it's perks at times, like yesterday when I was able to finish my math homework.
The bottom line is I am just ready to move on with my life and start a new career. There are times when the feeling is overwhelming and I need to vent. I feel very good that I am taking the necessary steps to make a change. I like school so far and doing extremely well. I passed English 101 with an A and I received a 100 % on my first math test and hope to repeat that for my second math test tonight.
I hope everyone accomplishes their dreams and goals and thank you again for the support.
I definitely understand this feeling. Its so frustrating to be SO ready for a change but not quite there yet. I dont know if it will help you or not, but just keep reminding yourself everyday that this ISNT forever, that there IS light at the end of the tunnel, and before you know it, you'll be in NS, and then graduating NS, and then on your way to the career of your dreams! Thats always helped me, personally.
There's a lot of us like you out there. I look at my boring job as a mean to an end. It pays the bills while I try to get into nursing school and there is relatively low stress at my job. Remember nothing is permanent. Not even life.
From the CNA perspective I would LOVE a desk job with nothing to do! Relish in what you have...Like someone said about going home and being too tired to do anything...When I work dayshift (6-2) I get off and am too tired to do anything. Seriously. I take a nap and sit around because I'm just physically and emotionally drained. The other half of the day when I work evening (2-10) I do stuff before work but after work again I'm too tired to do much of anything. Just my 2 cents!
I feel you on: at the desk all day Feeling like nothing you do really matters type of job. I like my job, in the sense that there are so many out there that are not fortunate to have a job, and that I have one. However, I as well, wish I could get a part time job and go to school full time! I always look forward to my 2 hour A&P Lecture at 7:30pm.. Crazy I know, but honestly it is the most thrilling part of my day! I am also applying for a 2010 ADN program. I am using the time at my office know to study and do my work of course, and do my best to stay positive!! Sometimes though it can be difficlut to look beyond the here and now. However, there is a light at the end of the tunnel, it is a long tunnel, but there is one! That is what helps me stay motivated.
9livesRN, BSN, RN
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i am crazzy too, my dogs look at my face then they get scared to even bark at me coz i look like Cr@p, i act like Cr@p i feel like cr@p, and basicaly i will be a huge cr@p untill i get passed microbiology next month!