My classmates who are in peril, being them. And, themselves being what they need to help.
We are three semesters in now, and I'm doing great and loving it. However, it's not the same for some of my classmates. At the end of the semester, there are those who sit on the fence. At the end of the semester, I get a stream of folks who need help. I don't know if it's out of panic, trust, or the recommendation of my teachers (for some reason, the teachers do say "Go ask her for help".)
At the end of last semester, there were quite a few that were about to fall out of the boat after a few fiascos of tests that only a few of us passed. For the final exam and simulation, I hustled and created some online study guides. As what I view as a result, my grades on the final and sim were not up to par with my other grades.
Now, here were are with the final test of the semester looming. I am conflicted by wanting to help the stream of people who want to study with me and wanting to continue making the grades I covet. It's more than grades to me though and it's more than classmates that need help.
It's like a battle at ethical odds. I want to be the compassionate, kind nurse who gives of herself when someone needs her. I want to be the excellent nurse who has the means and knowledge to solve any problem. I want to be a team player and a friend, but years of disappointments in that arena have lead me to be a lone wolf.
Please advise.