I've been a smoker since I was 14 years old and will be 36 this Sept. I have two boys who are 7 and 9 and hate the fact that I smoke. No I don't smoke in my house or car. The other day my 7 year old looked at me with his big brown eyes and cried while asking me to quit smoking. My boys have tried before by either getting angry with me or breaking my cigarettes, but all I can see is those teary eyes and it makes me feel like the biggest loser. I've tried accupuncture, hypnosis, the patches, Zyban, laser therapy, the gum and cold turkey and obviously nothing has worked. Well earlier tonight I threw out my cigarettes and put on a patch and I'm already a nervous wreck. I turned into a big BIT__ everytime I try to quit. I get anxious, angry and down right mean towards everyone. How did any of you quit and not kill someone? I did manage to quit while pregnant, but that was it. I know better working in the healthcare field, but I don't know how to quit successfully. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. I would love to get this big monkey off my back. Of course I won't tell anyone around me that I'm trying because they've heard 10 million times before. Also this time quitting has a whole new meaning, on a very personal level. I remember being a child and begging my mom with my big brown eyes to quit drinking and at the age of 49 she died. I don't want to keep failing my children.