Work related depression - page 2

Yet another post about stress and work related depression... :down: I burned out on bedside nursing and now I am burning out in my new non bedside position. I feel trapped in my job. I am the sole... Read More

  1. by   angelwatch01
    I can completely relate the feeling of being trapped in a situation that offers few outlets. I am a single mother of 2 school-aged children and one in high school that lives with his dad. My financial obligations are so stressful that it has completely affected my current relationship after moving to a small community with him. Between losing my health insurance and prescription benefits for myself and my kids, child support payments, student loans, other financial obligations, rent, and doctor bills the kids accumulated in just a few short months, it has taken its toll. I failed to meet the probationary period at my new job (lack of current skills) and am forced to move again. I spent my entire tax return to move here and admittedly, I should have had some money set aside before moving. I do not have the employee assistance resource that many facilities offer for even a few minutes of free help so I am on my own to wade through the crisis of life. Onward and upward, forward is the only option.

    If I could offer a few suggestions and echo some other users' advice: use the employee assistance program if you have it. Take a few days of vacation and go somewhere yourself. Take a part time job and fill in the extra with an outside job in an unrelated field if you can. Go back to school anc change careers or even advance it to move up. It's never too late. Your resume may need updated and I cannot stress enough: have a professional review it. For the small cost of a potential job that is better, the investment is well worth it. A good resume is often the difference between candidates even those with experience.

    I wish you the best of luck, it is not the easiest world out there. Times are hard now and will be better eventually.
  2. by   angelwatch01
    I too, went to a facility that had a hospital and LTC to try my hand at the "real" world of nursing after being in surgery for 4 years as a new grad. Talk about use-it-or-lose-it. The facility had 30 residents and capacity for 10 inpatients and an ER. At any given time, I had my 7 assigned residents in LTC and 2-3 inpatients and helping in the ER. I was unfamilliar with the electronic medical record, had never done much charting or documentation that is needed in those settings, drugs and dosages were foggy in the back of my head, I had never started an IV, given antibiotics on a pump, passed a med, you name it. My short term did not go well even though I had made tremendous progress from the day I was hired. I spent hours looking up correct dosages and other information. I was given a month of job-sharing/shadowing to improve my skills after being called to the DON's office for "concerns". I voiced my dismay of my 10 days of orientation to the LTC and hospital and electronic record and set loose to be on my own with no experience. It was worse than being out of school. At least I had information fresh in my head that I could rely on. After 4 years, most of my skills were non-existant and starting over was a crash course that led me to.. an even bigger crash. I completed my additional orientation period looking forward to my huge accomplishments and showing the skills I worked hard to accomplish in that time period. I asked for additional materials to keep on hand for the electronic records as a resource the last day of orientation. I didnt even get 20 minutes into the first day being on my own when I was called into the DON's office when I was let go. So, I too lick my wounds and while I am resentful for lacking critical care skills, I also can say I did not harm anyone in the process.
  3. by   wyogypsy
    I have gotten so burned out from working so much for so many years, that I now will only work 3 days one week and 2 the next, all 12 hour shifts of course. I really wish I could go to two 12 hr shifts per week but then I would not qualify for full time benefits which I have to have, as I am over 50 and single. It about kills me to work three 12 hr shifts in a row even though it is nice to get them out of the way. I do take an anti-depressant but not because of work, but I did have to go on Ativan for 30 days when leaving a previous job - had given my notice but could not quit crying every day.
  4. by   joanna73
    It's very unfortunate that the system continually burns people out. I'm very fortunate that I'll be able to take at least 2 months off next year, if I chose to. Ideally, I would like to work no more than 10 shifts a month. In another 6 or 7 years, that will be my goal. Full time nursing is too draining on anyone.
  5. by   Little_Mouse
    Thank you for sharing since at least I don't feel alone in this. The sad part is that I've only been a nurse for about 3 years...and have changed jobs nearly every year (a sign of burnout, no?) And although I realized that bedside nursing is not for me, as you have mentioned, it is difficult to get out of it. I recently started a job in a different unit, thinking that the patient load would be a little easier (expecting mainly walkie-talkies) but it is still bedside and still the confused, demented, pressure sore covered pts are there (I'm sorry to say that, since I know they are still human beings, but with time constraints and what not it's hard to provide the care they really need in a short amount of time) it's still just running around like a chicken with its head cut off, along with fear of making a mistake and-- at times-- almost overcome by self doubt and feeling that I wasn't able to provide good enough care...Maybe it's just me and my ability (or lack of) to handle stress or even my personality (reserved)...but I would love to get away from the bedside somehow. But in the mean time, I still have bills to pay and need medical insurance so this will have to do for now...

    I wish you luck. Know that you are not alone and that you do have a support system here. Remember to take care of yourself and take things one day at a time. (I need to make sure I follow that advice as well! lol)
  6. by   Genista
    Thank you to each and every one of you for your thoughtful responses. It is a comfort to know I am not the only one who went into this profession with (naive) good intentions, but it turned out to be too high a burden to bear. My heart goes out to you in your own circumstances! Yes, I am very lucky in that I am paid VERY well at this point. I have great benefits & work part time. I am appreciative of this EVERY day. However, I am noticing how the stress and responsibility and fast pace of the job is eating me alive, and no amount of money is worth that. I am struggling to be happy more frequently even when I am not working, and that is what is my wake up call. I have a beautiful family & much to be grateful for.

    I have struggled with burnout off/on during my entire nursing career. I guess the idealistic image I had of this profession does not match up anywhere near the reality. I too, have a problem with disconnecting from my work. I keep thinking maybe there is some other specialty that I would be happy in. But, it is near to impossible to move around into new areas. And so far, the few areas I have moved around in, are strangely very similar in the stresses I encounter.

    I recently realized that I have a love/hate relationship with nursing. I am thinking maybe I chose the wrong career for all the right reasons. I wanted to make a difference, to learn & grow, to do something meaningful. Even on a bad day, I know I am helping people...but at what price? The healthcare industry is really focused on the bottom line & profits, and I am not sure it's worth it to stay. I am staying for now, because I have to. But, if there were a job out there that paid my bills and had less stress I would be all over it yesterday. I can help people in my off time...if you know what I mean.

    Lucky for me, I guess, I do have a BSN, so I could maybe try & obtain some other job that requires a BS degree. Even so, it is tough to find a decent paying job without experience in another field. I have 14 years experience and I am having trouble to break into new specialties! I am still trying to apply to other areas in nursing that interest me, but it is rare to get a reply from an employer. The market is on lock down. I am stuck where I am, and that's that. It must be even harder for the new grads.I truly feel for them.

    Thanks to all for the encouragement, sharing your own struggles, and the advice. It means a great deal to know there are so many caring and kind nurses out there who are feeling the same. Though I don't have an "answer" for how this will resolve, I thank you for reaching out with your own stories. It is comforting to know you are not alone, and that others know about the pressures/stress and burdens I am feeling as a nurse. My thoughts are with you & your families as you find your own way...
  7. by   joanna73
    When I was at school, jobs were in abundance until we hit 3rd year. The market was great, and then this terrible recession hit. As a result, everything changed dramatically, and has remained this way since. Nursing has always had ebbs and flows over the years, but this economy has been devastating. So I don't think naivetee is necessarily true for most of us. I knew what I was getting in to from day one. I also knew that I'd be paying my dues, and then working towards what I want. Despite the terrible economy, nursing should work for our lives (in a sense), not the other way around. So these "typical" working environments were not so typical six years ago.
  8. by   CrunchRN
    Keep trying for other positions. You just never know when someone will like you and/or be desperate and give you a break.
  9. by   mtngrl
    I have never felt such depression, anxiety, and stress until I became a nurse. I used to be the most positive cheerfull person! Now I cry all the time. I thought it was just bedside nursing I hated so I switched to case management. But nope, it still sucks. Actually the stress is even worse!!!!! I hate nursing and I regret so much getting this degree. Now I work full time so can't go back to school nor could I afford to...still putting my daugher through college currently. Most people think I have a dream job..I can work from home, holidays and weekends off, day hours.....but seriously the stress is so not worth it. I don't have time to even exercise anymore due to the massive workload, and I am ALWAYS tired. I am sick of changing jobs because I just hate them all. I just want a job that has NOTHING to do with healthcare. Unfortunately I can't afford to do that so I will be stuck being depressed in a career I hate.
  10. by   DSkelton711
    It is really sad how many of us feel powerless and hopeless in our careers as nurses. I have wished, almost everyday for 26 years, that I had chosen another field. I have never really felt comfortable in my skin as a nurse. I conveyed confidence at times just to hide my feelings of incompetence. I haven't done bedside nursing for almost 20 years, so that is not my issue. There seems to be some sort of stress in every position. I wish I felt hopeful for the future of nursing, but I don't. There are nurses that I know that deal very well with the stress and demands and I wish I could be like that. The really weird part is--I don't know what I would do if I weren't a nurse!
  11. by   cantdoit
    I can also relate. I feel totally hopeless and stuck in nursing. I'm depressed and exausted from this job... I just want to get out of nursing altogether, but the economy has stalled out. Sometimes I consider working as a waitress just to get away...
  12. by   LTCNS
    *Raises hand* Another nurse who wishes she had chosen a different profession. I started as a bedside nurse, thought the grass was greener in an office position so was a MDS Coordinator for 14 years, tried bedside nursing again because I couldn't take the corporate greed and constant scrutiny a MDS nurse endures, recently started at a wound clinic as a wound nurse/hyperbaric tech thinking I would be happy as a lark but I'm finding myself wanting out already. I have finally figured out it's not the jobs I've had but the profession I'm in that is making me miserable.
  13. by   mtngrl
    Well it's a new year, let's change something! I would love to find a non nursing job but of course that will mean a HUGE and I do mean HUGE pay cut. Unless some miracle job happens lol. I say this every year and then get scared and end up taking a new nursing job. I got a real estate license at one point but the market sucked so bad I spent more than I made. Ugh trying to escape nursing is HARD! Good luck to us!!!