I believe in God, there is no way on earth I could have passed Nclex on my own. It was 100% God... The first time I took the Nclex, I used ATI. I'm gonna be very honest here; I wasn't ready, it was in October 2013, I did the PVT and it went straight to the cc page. My world came crashing down! When I said I wasn't ready, I meant mentally I wasn't ready. By the time I reached question #5 I asked myself how did people pass this test??????? I felt like the test was in Chinese. I have very very bad test anxiety! I couldn't breath, smell, hear, think, talk... It was like I was in a coma... The computer turn blue after #84! I have never seen a test like this before! I didn't tell anyone that I was going to take the exam, not even my Family, so I didn't have to tell anyone that I failed either.
The second time I actually told my family. I used a review of 97 pages that I bought on youtube for $30. I took it again in December 2013. I felt better about the test. I was answering questions before even reading the answers, well the computer turn blue after #124. I felt really good about it and I did the PVT at the parking lot before I left.... Went straight to the CC page, a week later I received the letter in my mail box letting me know what I already knew! I told my family, everyone was devastated. I felt really bad. But my family thought it was my first try and they were very supportive... They advised me to try again. I didn't even know what to do anymore because I already know everything, so I guessed I needed to practice questions, which I did with Saunders, I used Saunders yellow book, which only had questions and rationales... I did all of them.
I gave it another try for the 3rd time in May 2014, 265 questions and 6 hrs later "FAILED" again. I had to lie to my fam and tell them that I passed, trust me, I had no choice! I know I sound ridiculous but I felt like I was nothing, I felt dumb and I felt so bad for my family.... I'm the first one to go to college, so every set of eyes was on me...I'm their hope, and I hate seeing them feeling hopeless... My dad had sacrificed a lot for me to get me this far and I couldn't pass a test, which all of my friends pass at 75 questions. I felt ashamed! The only thing I noticed about myself was every time I go I do better, even though I failed I did better than the last time! So, I bought Saunders blue book, it has everything "contents, questions and rationales". I read it front to back, and I practiced the online questions also. I did about 2000 something questions out of 5000 something.
I prayed every mn, I cried, I begged God to please help me... 4 days before my test I had a dream that I passed. I knew right then that God had answered my prayers... I went back for the 4th time in September 2014 and while I was in the parking lot waiting for the test center to open, I talk to God! I told him, he needs to do something and he needs to do it now because I'm not coming back in here anymore, I'm traumatized... I was a c student in nursing school, I always had trouble answering the questions, even when I know the answers, I always talk my self out of it by asking "what if?" Wrong... so I knew for a fact that there is no way on earth I can pass this test if God doesn't take over!
I told God I don't even need your help anymore, what I need is a miracle!!!! You need to take over my life right now. I have nothing! 265 questions and 6 hrs later with no break,I was in the parking lot screaming "why" why me? What did I do wrong??? I didn't do the PVT this time,nothing, I was tired of reading FAIL under my name. 4 business day later I received a letter from the Education Department saying I need to fix something before they issue me my license! I was like ok, "does this mean that I pass"? and they emailed me back saying "yes you have achieved a passing grade". I was so astonished I went to the pearsonvue website pay the $7.95 just to make sure! And I read PASS for the first time under my name. The feeling was tremendous, I couldn't believe it.
I am an RN... Thank you Jesus
Yes you can and yes you will... Just believe!!!!:-)
Congratulations! It's huge to be a nurse and huge to be the first one in your family to attend and graduate college. I hope your career is HUGELY rewarding. Well done and God be with you.
WOW, this story had me in tears because I am going through the exact same thing. I have taken the NCLEX 2 times now and each time my parents have pressured me into setting a date. I was also an average student in school but have always dreamed of having a career as a nurse. I plan to take my third try within a month or two but beyond scared! Not to mention I have extreme test anxiety as well!
yamilepuig
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I really don't want to be in yours hands as a patient, unbelievable.