Have faith and don't ever give up!!!!

Published

I believe in God, there is no way on earth I could have passed Nclex on my own. It was 100% God... The first time I took the Nclex, I used ATI. I'm gonna be very honest here; I wasn't ready, it was in October 2013, I did the PVT and it went straight to the cc page. My world came crashing down! When I said I wasn't ready, I meant mentally I wasn't ready. By the time I reached question #5 I asked myself how did people pass this test??????? I felt like the test was in Chinese. I have very very bad test anxiety! I couldn't breath, smell, hear, think, talk... It was like I was in a coma... The computer turn blue after #84! I have never seen a test like this before! I didn't tell anyone that I was going to take the exam, not even my Family, so I didn't have to tell anyone that I failed either.

The second time I actually told my family. I used a review of 97 pages that I bought on youtube for $30. I took it again in December 2013. I felt better about the test. I was answering questions before even reading the answers, well the computer turn blue after #124. I felt really good about it and I did the PVT at the parking lot before I left.... Went straight to the CC page, a week later I received the letter in my mail box letting me know what I already knew! I told my family, everyone was devastated. I felt really bad. But my family thought it was my first try and they were very supportive... They advised me to try again. I didn't even know what to do anymore because I already know everything, so I guessed I needed to practice questions, which I did with Saunders, I used Saunders yellow book, which only had questions and rationales... I did all of them.

I gave it another try for the 3rd time in May 2014, 265 questions and 6 hrs later "FAILED" again. I had to lie to my fam and tell them that I passed, trust me, I had no choice! I know I sound ridiculous but I felt like I was nothing, I felt dumb and I felt so bad for my family.... I'm the first one to go to college, so every set of eyes was on me...I'm their hope, and I hate seeing them feeling hopeless... My dad had sacrificed a lot for me to get me this far and I couldn't pass a test, which all of my friends pass at 75 questions. I felt ashamed! The only thing I noticed about myself was every time I go I do better, even though I failed I did better than the last time! So, I bought Saunders blue book, it has everything "contents, questions and rationales". I read it front to back, and I practiced the online questions also. I did about 2000 something questions out of 5000 something.

I prayed every mn, I cried, I begged God to please help me... 4 days before my test I had a dream that I passed. I knew right then that God had answered my prayers... I went back for the 4th time in September 2014 and while I was in the parking lot waiting for the test center to open, I talk to God! I told him, he needs to do something and he needs to do it now because I'm not coming back in here anymore, I'm traumatized... I was a c student in nursing school, I always had trouble answering the questions, even when I know the answers, I always talk my self out of it by asking "what if?" Wrong... so I knew for a fact that there is no way on earth I can pass this test if God doesn't take over!

I told God I don't even need your help anymore, what I need is a miracle!!!! You need to take over my life right now. I have nothing! 265 questions and 6 hrs later with no break,I was in the parking lot screaming "why" why me? What did I do wrong??? I didn't do the PVT this time,nothing, I was tired of reading FAIL under my name. 4 business day later I received a letter from the Education Department saying I need to fix something before they issue me my license! I was like ok, "does this mean that I pass"? and they emailed me back saying "yes you have achieved a passing grade". I was so astonished I went to the pearsonvue website pay the $7.95 just to make sure! And I read PASS for the first time under my name. The feeling was tremendous, I couldn't believe it.

I am an RN... Thank you Jesus

Yes you can and yes you will... Just believe!!!!:-)

Up Vote Up Vote ×

Congrats dear RN

Up Vote Up Vote ×

Thank you :-)

Up Vote Up Vote ×

To God be the Glory great things He has done. Congrats RN on a job well done. Keep praying for us that the same miracle happens to us as well. Hard work and perseverance and a miracle from God do lead to success. It is true, the race is not to the swift or the battle to the strong but to those who endures to the end. Congrats again. Now go out there and "SHINE WITH THE LOVE OF GOD."

Up Vote Up Vote ×

Congratulations!!! Don't give up on God because he won't give up on you ???

Up Vote Up Vote ×

"I believe in God, there is no way on earth I could have passed Nclex on my own. It was 100% God..." Faith

I am a believer in G'd, but I disagree that your passing of a test was "100% G'd". No, I think YOU took the coursework, YOU studied the material, and YOU passed the exam.

Give praises to G'd, but take credit for YOURSELF where it is due :) YOU earned it.

Congrats!

Up Vote Up Vote ×

I will keep you in my prayers hadassah16... And thank you so much for being so supportive!!!

believe with all your heart...the license is already yours!!!!

Up Vote Up Vote ×

Thanks a lot :-)

Up Vote Up Vote ×

Thank you, I c ur point there... It was me, but it was God through me! When I get really anxious I can't even remember my own birthday... Trust me I'm not exaggerating! So passing Nclex was pure Miracle...

Up Vote Up Vote ×
Thank you, I c ur point there... It was me, but it was God through me! When I get really anxious I can't even remember my own birthday... Trust me I'm not exaggerating! So passing Nclex was pure Miracle...

Well, then let's hope that everything you do as a nurse from this moment on ALSO has G'd working through you :)

Up Vote Up Vote ×
I will keep you in my prayers hadassah16... And thank you so much for being so supportive!!!

believe with all your heart...the license is already yours!!!!

AMEN! Thank you so much for that.
Up Vote Up Vote ×

Well said Faith RN.

Up Vote Up Vote ×
+ Join the Discussion