When there is a beginning, there is always an end *sob* - page 2

In the Fall 2004 semester, I failed my hospital clinical site and recieved a failing grade. I was in the first semester. In the Spring 2005 semester, I went to a new nursing school hoping for a fresh... Read More

  1. by   mishayla96
    ]Sad--Hey sweetie! I am so sorry to hear about what you have been through. It probably doesn't mean much coming from me, since I have not even begun the journey yet, but as someone else mentioned, just try to keep your chin up, change that name of yours, and go speak to a councelor at your school about your options. I to be honest am going to do that if I do not make it into the nursing program when I apply, or if I feel it is not cut out for me when I start. I am a medical assistant right now and I am sure that RN is a lot different, a lot more responsibility than an MA has thats for sure! At my CC there are lots of other stuff, like cardiovascular technology, dental hygiene, radiography, resperatory care, dental assisting, surgical tech, etc), I am hoping you have other options too! CHIN UP, SMILE, and KEEP US POSTED on your progress!!
  2. by   angelac1978
    Quote from SMK1
    perhaps nursing is not for you? Maybe something else in the healthcare field would work? You probably have more than enough prereqs for most programs so look into other areas, such as dental hygiene, respiratory therapy, radiology tech, etc.. or perhaps you can take a break, or maybe health administration is for you. Good luck and get some counseling for yourself. You are always so down on yourself in your posts and you need to talk to a professional about your outlook, it can't be healthy for you to sounds so depressed so often.

    Honestly, I think the OP needs to look at some other field than healthcare. All allied health fields are very demanding. I am in my second semester of a rad tech program and I am in class and clinic close to 40 hrs per week. We have check offs and skills we have to comp in clinic and we have to keep up with our stuff. There's no room for someone who plays the victim when something doesn't go their way.

    Sad, I think that you should go to the career center at your school and get their input. Many career centers have interest and aptitude tests you can take that will tell you what you would be good at given your interests. That way, you can find a field that you like quickly, instead of bouncing from program to program.

  3. by   SmilingBluEyes
    I am sorry. I know how you feel. My first attempt at college out of high school ended in miserable failure. So did my 2nd attempt at 22. I went back to school after a long time with a GPA of 1.6. Can you imagine? How humiliating and difficult to overcome. But over come I did. I even failed my first attempt at entry to nursing school. The rejection letter was hurtful and deflating. But I overcame it......

    Maybe,my first attempts at schooling were not at the right times or right places for me. I finally did find the right time/place and did well. I managed a 4.0 GPA in nursing school because I finally found what I was meant to do and did it well.

    Is nursing really a good fit for you? I dont' know, maybe you need to ask yourself that. Obviously computer science and psychology majors were not for me....I felt deflated at the time, but I took time out to think what to do....and mature a bit. Maybe what you need now is time to step back, take a breath and decide what's next. Maybe you need to examine if nursing is for you, or not. Take your time. Really look into your heart and see what you think is right.

    I am sorry about this----------- but remember, we all fail at one time or another. Sometimes failure can be turned around to success, when we find our true "niche". Hang in there and stay strong. I am sorry it did not work out. Maybe another time. Or another place. Or another program of study. Hugs.
    Last edit by SmilingBluEyes on Jan 25, '05
  4. by   wannabemw
    I too failed out of my 1st BSN program. I am now well on my way to re-applying. I had always struggled w/school and decided that I would finally go and get tested for LD's. And yes, I do have them. I decided intially to forgo the ADD testing. BUT: I mentioned to my Neurologist 8m later that I thought I might be ADD. He went down the list of symptoms and I couldn't believe it! I had nearly all of them :0 ! Have u considered this possibility? I would study for hours and fail my exams, terribly. I had no idea why. What I didn't realize is that I was not studying and retaining much, b/c I was so distracted and had no idea I was!
    I have learned so much about myself in the last 2 yrs. I wouldn't trade it for anything. I cried...oh how I cried. Then I began fighting for what I really want. I grad this spring w/my BS in Health Ed. My GPA went from a 2.8 up to a 3.5! What a difference medication makes! I am applying for BSN school this fall. Wish me luck! I know it will be hard, but I can do it! Have u went and talked to your prof about what u r going through? She/he may have some insight for you! Perhaps you may just need to go at a slower pace (schools offer this option if they see a need). You can do this!
    Above all: remember: You can be in the medical field in some way, shape size or form. Perhaps u could become a CNA? I like the other suggestions too. But, being that I have been where u have been follow your heart, pray and ask guidence, and know that we r all here for you! PM me if u need to vent!
    God Bless You,
  5. by   lil' girl
    Quote from sad
    It felt very bad when an instructor passed me up from a check off because I did not perform a skill right on the first attempt. Also, a different instructor told me today, that I am struggling. The funny thing about it, is that I know I can do these skills competently if it was in a different environment...I could not take how the instructors were treating me so I decided to throw in the towel to save my dignity.. I hope I made the right choice.. I was behind in two check offs and everyone else was finished..
    Sad thank you for this post. I hope it makes us nursing students realize that the instructors are only responsible for instructing us and that it is up to US to get the skills and theory right. Also not to blame someone else because we failed. As far as dignity, I would feel like a heel if I threw in the towel if I knew that nursing was what I wanted to do. Again thanks for the post makes me want to bust my butt, no matter what!
  6. by   Nikki730
    Sad, I'm sorry that you've had this painful experience. I don't know if this will comfort you any, but I've had my own experiences with finding out things just wouldn't work out with some plan I had.

    For one thing, I found it very hard to learn to drive. (I know, sounds weird!) and it got in the way of so many things I needed...I went to a school that's reknowned for "friendliness" but in reality, it wasn'tl...so when you took a class that had meetings off campus, you better drive and have your own car. Even if I had my license, it wouldn't have helped since I had no $$ for a car. I finally did learn to drive, when I was 22 1/2. It took a lot of practice, and I had to take the test more than once (more like 3 times.) LOL.

    I took many classes in college thinking that I would be a biology teacher. Until I finally had to admit to myself that I just didn't want to be/wasn't cut out for teaching. Which worsened an already bad depression I was going through.

    You might want to focus on working for a while. There are many temp. services. If you know how to type, that's certainly a good skill. You can meet many people this way. (Hey, you're bound to find some more friends that way!) You might find a job you love, and co-workers that like and respect your abilities and work ethic. Then you will have some "positives" in your life...increased self-esteem, time to think about what you want, new friends, $$ to buy what you want. I'm not sure about how old you are, so if your parents are pressuring you, you might need to have a serious heart to heart talk about not pushing you to do things you aren't ready for/not sure you want. You might be able to compromise, such as taking a gen. ed class or two, while working part time or something. That way you're still "in school" but yet not completely immersed in an atmosphere that brought you pain.

    Please be well, and I hope that you come back to tell us what you decided to do. Take Care. :kiss
    Last edit by Nikki730 on Feb 2, '05
  7. by   Purple Princess
    I too graduated from high school and began my journey at the local community college to be an RN. I did good in my pre reqs. Then came the tough part, the actual nursing classes. I understood the material but boy was there alot of reading, the tests were hard, I hated lab, and clinical was a nightmare. Needless to say the first time I attempted fundamentals I failed because I was so nervous, poor time management, and I couldn't even get the nerve to talk to my patient. I was re admitted to the program and the next year I passed fundamentals but failed again in medical surgical nursing. That being the second time I was kicked out for good. I did manage to get an associates degree in general studies and graduated in december of 2004. I have my cna and have been doing that since may. It is very stressful, hard work but it has taught me basic patient care, people skills, time management, assessment skills, and how to deal with certain clients who are scared, confused, just plain difficult, or have alzheimers/psych problems. I will resume my nursing education next month at LPN school. The two skills that got me the most were blood pressure and injections. I know I spent alot of time practicing in the nursing lab. I still think nursing is right for me now but I just wasn't ready two years ago.
  8. by   abundantjoy07
    i completely agree with weetzie. all of your posts have been very unhappy. even your name is an unhappy one to choose. i think you should rethink nursing because you're only going to continue to be hurt and sad as you have been in the past.
    it's not worth suffering over. life is too short.

    Quote from weetziebat
    sad, i am sorry to hear you are not doing well in a second nursing program. from your past posts i know that you have had numerous problems in nursing school. hopefully, this time you will realize that nursing is not for everyone. you need to stop and think about things honestly and understand that your attitude had a lot to do with you not doing well in school. please realize that by playing the victim you set yourself up for failure.

    take a long, hard, honest look at yourself and go into a field that you will do better in. there are many, many other healthcare related fields out there where you can help others.

    i'm sorry if this seems harsh, but you really need to understand how you contributed to your problems - and then go on to find an area where you will shine. i wish you all the very best, really i do. take care -
  9. by   Purple Princess
    I personally had the worse time with blood pressures. I would get so nervous, couldn't hear the sounds for systole and diastole. Once I had it on their arm, pumped it up, and started releasing the valve and had the ear pieces in my ears but failed to place the diaphragm on their arm:chuckle No wonder I couldn't hear anything. Also I was trying to listen to someones heart that had a very thick chest wall due to general body size and medical condition. I couldn't hear a dang thing. I got my teacher to help and eventually we got it yet it was faint for her to hear as well. I joked and said well he must be alive cause he's looking at me and talking and laughing! You do have to be professional in clinical and do what your told to do and execute your nursing skills efficiently but most of the patients know that we are students snd we are nervous and sometimes it's okay to laugh at yourself. BTW what other work experience have you had? I think in my case my young age (only 22), lack of experience, and general insecurities led to my failures in the RN program. I've since seen a counselor to talk about those things, got a job as a cna, and decided to try for lpn instead for right now. you can pm me if you want.
  10. by   RainDreamer
    I'm all for moving on and not ever giving up, but this is a tough situation. I don't see how 2 different nursing schools have instructors that are all "out to get you". They're not trying to fail you or weed you out, that might be the case in some instances, but for it to be like that at 2 different schools? Unlikely. You've said in previous posts that your name on here is "sad" because nursing school is sad. Nursing school shouldn't be sad ... it's hard and frustrating at times, but if it's always making you sad, then it's time to rethink and reevaluate your reasons for being in nursing school.

    I think you're doing the right thing by stepping back and realizing that nursing school may not be for you, like people have said, it's not for everyone. I know first hand how it feels to fail a nursing class and think *maybe this isn't for me*. I failed my med/surg class first semester. I had to really think hard about what I wanted to do and if I wanted to proceed with nursing school or not. I knew I wanted to be a nurse, I didn't want to do anything else. So I went right back at it. It can be done, you don't have to give up, but really look inside yourself and ask "why am I in nursing school?, what do I really want?"

    We've given you tons and tons of advice in your threads and you never seem to want the advice and you just continue being the victim, but I do hope this time is different and you're reading all these posts, listening to what we're saying, there's some great advice here. Please get the help you need and look inside yourself. Good luck.
  11. by   Twinkie1
    May I offer words of encouragement? Try not to be disappointed because life has a funny way of working things out. Hang in there great things may be coming your way! Best Wishes 2 U
  12. by   klone
    Quote from sad
    The funny thing about it, is that I know I can do these skills competently if it was in a different environment...I could not take how the instructors were treating me so I decided to throw in the towel to save my dignity.
    Again...it's always someone else's fault, isn't it?
  13. by   nursemeow
    Sad, throwing in the towel under stress cannot be an option in nursing. I do not know you and I will not say that nursing is not for you forever, but I think it is not right for you right now. It sounds like you lack confidence and don't beleive in yourself. You must take responsibility for yourself and most importantly take care of your mental health. You cannot take care of other humans if you are unable to respect yourself. Believe in your strengths. Everyone has weakness. As far as dignity goes I am confused.