Hi guys
I'm 31, originally from Moscow, Russia, in USA 12 years. I became an RN in 2005, currently I work on med-surge floor.
I was preparing for medschool as a highschool student in Moscom, but my life has not turned out exactly as I wanted it to go, so I just now decided to go back to school.
I graduated Nursing school with honors, AS and now I am starting in SUNY Albany this fall with pre-med/ BS of Science/Biology major. I have at least 45 credits so far, need 120.
My problem is that I don't know anyone who is doing this, especially being a) foreginer b) over 30 c) RN D) mother of 2
I basically feel "different", most people ask me what am I going to school for , expecting - PA or NP, then they hear the answer and say things like : it will take forever, you will never have time for your kids, you will be exausted in residency, it is expensive..etc. Also, the other day I applied for tuition assistance at work ( only 500$) and they called me and left a message questioning how going to school for pre-med/Bio applies to my career and that they need clarification of my goals.
Everyday I try to pump myself up and convince myself that I will be fine and going to school with 20 year olds is not a big deal. I feel a constant struggle with "reality" presented by other people and attemts to go after my career dream that I've had since I was 5.
My husband is fine with it, althrough he knows all the pros and cons, kids are little, but they are OK.
Maybe I just feel insecure and need to stop listening to other people.
thanks for letting me vent