RN to MD anyone? Feeling unsupported.

[Anagray]

Hi guys

I'm 31, originally from Moscow, Russia, in USA 12 years. I became an RN in 2005, currently I work on med-surge floor.

I was preparing for medschool as a highschool student in Moscom, but my life has not turned out exactly as I wanted it to go, so I just now decided to go back to school.

I graduated Nursing school with honors, AS and now I am starting in SUNY Albany this fall with pre-med/ BS of Science/Biology major. I have at least 45 credits so far, need 120.

My problem is that I don't know anyone who is doing this, especially being a) foreginer b) over 30 c) RN D) mother of 2

I basically feel "different", most people ask me what am I going to school for , expecting - PA or NP, then they hear the answer and say things like : it will take forever, you will never have time for your kids, you will be exausted in residency, it is expensive..etc. Also, the other day I applied for tuition assistance at work ( only 500$) and they called me and left a message questioning how going to school for pre-med/Bio applies to my career and that they need clarification of my goals.

Everyday I try to pump myself up and convince myself that I will be fine and going to school with 20 year olds is not a big deal. I feel a constant struggle with "reality" presented by other people and attemts to go after my career dream that I've had since I was 5.

My husband is fine with it, althrough he knows all the pros and cons, kids are little, but they are OK.

Maybe I just feel insecure and need to stop listening to other people.

thanks for letting me vent

[Multicollinearity, BSN, RN]

Your employer is probably questioning the tuition reimbursement because your courses aren't for a BSN degree. This is reasonable because you taking coursework for a biology degree doesn't benefit their nurse staffing or allied health needs. So in other words, the coursework benefits you and not them.

That said, if this is what you want to do - go for it! Your employer just may not pay for some tuition depending on their policies.

[gentle]

My goodness child,

Just go for it;) !!!! I decided not to do the same; but, I know my decision is correct for me . As things turned out, I will probably go back to school and teach special needs children.

The point being, you know exactly what your dreams are, and you must--yes, I said YOU MUST--follow them through. Your soul will not rest if you don't. I have seen 2 people who I believe were created to physicians and they did not pursue this. Even in their day to day activities, I can still tell that they are working out this dilemma within their souls.

Every person was created with a beautiful and special purpose. I also believe, that we should find out what that purpose is and do it to the best of our ability.

As for me, well, I was/am supposed to be a different kind of mother. We have a special needs child. I have had a desire to work with special children since I was 13years old. I remember when the desire took hold in my soul. The funny thing is that my colleagues say, I would be a good teacher .

The question then becomes, why am I a nurse? The answer: because, this was my temporary assignment/purpose. It is no less beautiful than my next assignment; the tools I gather along life's path will be a blessing to more people in the future. Most likely--and prayerfully--the lives I have touched during this assignment will be enhanced in a positive way, because, I was present. It is the same with you too. You will do great:icon_hug:!!!!

Best wishes.