...to every one who added me to your Christmas card lists this year too. I had the greatest intentions from day one but never got them done. For the past 5 years we have sent out close to 100 cards to both sides of our family, this year we were remembered by 6 of them.
I used to be a big fan of Christmas with all of the decorations and lights and while I hate to shop I love to give presents. This year the spirit just hasn't been here for us...good grief, we didn't bother to get a tree or decorate until a couple of days ago.
My husband and I have both felt that things have seemed so hectic and forced this season. My family's stuff is nothing compared to what many member of the board are going thru so I haven't said much...we have had to face the sad truth that my Mom won't be with us next year and the possibility that my MIL will be gone also.
There are a lot of other things weighing heavy on us. We are both miserable in our jobs. The boys are going no-where (future wise). We worry about my daughter being so young, with no education and what her and the baby's future will be like. My neurosurgeon(s) think the best 'fix' for me is good old fashoned Herrington rods. My 12 yo stepson (in OKC) is spending Christmas in an inpatient psych unit and all that is wrong with him is lack of discipline, labels and a histronic bio-Mom. Last and least, my husband and I have 'always' planned to relocate to Witicha, KS (closer to his family, but not to close) when my Mom passed, now we don't see our ever being able to leave this area. My kids grew up in this area and their lives are rooted here, we are all so close, neither of us can see me being able to leave my kids behind. My husband is as committed to my kids as I am but I feel like I have let him down on this.
So again, thank you to every one who remembered me and my family with a card, each and every one of them has been enjoyed and proudly displayed.
(and I may send my Christmas cards out yet!)
love you guys, even those of you I don't much like sometimes