Quote from rn mom of 2
"nursing is not for the timid, or the brave!"
i love that.... thanks for sharing!
................ once you get comfortable with the skills you will gain confidence, and you will still be the same caring person. this combination makes for an excellent nurse. i'd try to stay for one year and then decide what you really want to do. i think telemetry is a great area to learn many skills, as well as technical experience
to the new rn - i understand how you feel - i didn't think i'd make it my first year in tele either. i used to count the 'days' i had left till i made my 1 year mark!
sometime before i made the 'one year' mark i stopped counting the days. something just 'snapped' (ha) or happened to me and i no longer felt sick to my stomach every time i walked on the floor at the start of my shift.
thanks to the nurses who helped me out (and to the ones who were nasty - well i learned from them too (what not to do) - anyway - very often i heard patient's and their families say "you have been the best nurse we've had here- or - i wish all the nurses were like you - etc...
i realized that i was making a difference and taking the time (though there are days i can't give them as much unfortunately) and i couldn't believe all the things i had experienced. alot of nurses told me i got the most challenging/unusual patients sometimes - i think it was god testing me actually! i also saw so many nurses like you who just couldn't take it - some left - but those who stayed were transformed by 1 year into confident competent caring "time mgt pros" by the end of their 1st year...
hang in there - you will be so proud of yourself if you do even if you leave tele and pursue something else....
things that worked for me:
find a 'friend' who's new like you so you can vent (but don't gossip!...just talk through frustrations and learning curve) definitely don't gossip - this a dangerous road!
take some time
on days off to read and refresh your memory on patient treatments,meds,conditions so you have a better understanding of how best to take care of your patient.
i found my biggest fear was "what i didn't know" so i tried to constantly keep up with the fastpaced,varied patients i encountered (this is a never ending task though) lol
take each 'schedule' (4wks?) at a time - just give yourself small goals like i'll work the end of the schedule and reevaluate. by counting the days i had to make it to one year it gave me some control i think
i actually marked my calendar at home like this - it helped me sometimes to cope
look for positive feedback from peers, your nurse mgr/charge rn ?
we all need some validation and your patient's and family will probably will give you kudos for a good job i also found certain nurses just made me feel calmer - i tried to be like them - adapt their attitude - it really helped me too!
i also found that some other rns in your situation actually cut their hours (part time instead of fulltime - maybe only working 2 12hr shifts a week) helped them immensely. before you ever took the drastic step to leave try that option if available.
and lastly, of course - do things you like to do on your time off, quality time for yourself - family friends ---- it really helps to put it all in perspective!
good luck...... you will be so proud of yourself if you stick it out.