I know this sounds horrible, ive been on the floor since may, its now October thats 6 months, since then, ive given the wrong dose of morphine, scanned the wrong patient, forgotten to report a critical, notified the doctor of a wrong critical, had a patient fall and more. I get so stressed at work that i don't even want to talk to the patients. I feel annoyed and angry a lot of the time and i get sooo stressed about making mistakes that it effects my personal life too. I was put on nights and its horrible, on my days off i cant even sleep until like 7 am some days and i have a really hard time keeping up with the rest of my life. Luckily nothing bad has happened and i have learned from my mistakes, but i cant help but question if maybe i am just not cut out for the hustle and bustle of nursing. I like many aspects about the job ( 3 days a week, 12 hour shifts, being busy etc) but I just dont seem to be catching on as quickly as others. My body, mind and soul are suffering and i feel like an ant on a mountain trying to climb over. I dont think I could handle days but this shift is killing me. I liked nursing school more than this lol. Any ideas for a career switch that uses nuring knowledge or any words of advice.? I dont want to be putting patients in harm and I definitely cant see myself doing this for the rest of my life. Any words of appreciation would be appreciated
6 am and still cant sleep
I just keep trying to remind myself that this is not forever and im doing my best but some days its not good enough, i think im getting depressed.