I don't really know what I'm trying to ask on this site, but if you happen to be bored and are willing to brainstorm with me....welcome.
I've spent the last few years in school. I started my pre-reqs for nursing school in 2015. I graduated and transferred to one of the top university nursing schools in my state. With that being said, it is also the hardest I'm sure, or we would actually have a nursing shortage I'm sure
See what I did there? LOL
Anyway, I'm a non-traditional student. I'm young (younger than 25), I got divorced last year, and I have 3 kids (5, 3, & 18months.) I knew nursing school would not be a walk in the park, but I didn't think it would be near impossible. I commute 45min-1 hour to school one way. I ended up failing one course (by less than .25 of a point) last semester. I retook the class and I'm doing so much better. I'm very happy with my grade.
My issue: I'm jumping back into the program with a different cohort than which I started with into THE hardest semester of the program. I hear after this upcoming semester it's supposed to be smooth sailing for the remainder of the program. This is a 16 month BSN program and it's top of the line. 100% of the last graduating class had jobs set up before they took their NCLEX (coming from the SON director.) I'm feeling intimidated and rusty to say the least. I haven't been to a darn clinical or written a care plan in 4 months, and I'm supposed to head into this upcoming clinical which I'm sure will be more difficult working as if I mastered and am able to preform all the skills from my last clinical months ago. I'm terrified and praying I get a patient CI.
2nd issue: The course load/work is supposed to be the most challenging of the program. If I end up failing again I'd have to take various steps and take it to a board to be able to continue in the program. I'm not trying to be negative Nancy over here, I'm trying to be realistic and rational. I need to have a back up plan incase the worst happens and I fail again. I am in a tremendous amount of debt (for me personally) from being a part time student this semester, not receiving financial aid, or my VA benefits. I absolutely cannot repeat another class at this school even if they would allow me to.
I am doing everything different for this upcoming semester. I've had about 4 months to have a come to Jesus meeting with myself to figure out what I need to do/change in order to be successful. If I fail, I obviously wasn't intended to go this route into nursing. What will my back up plan be? (rhetorical)
My first idea would be to apply at the CC I graduated from and apply to their ADN program. The only thing I see strange here is that about 1/4 of their classes in their program I have already taken in pre-reqs, or in the nursing program I'm in now. How does that work? Would I have to retake them? Would my god-awful GPA follow me back to my CC? Taking a failing grade really destroyed my GPA since we started the program with a 0.0.
My 2nd idea would be to work work work as much as I could waiting tables or something to help pay off some of this debt and to get my sh*t together to see if they'd allow me back into the program.
My 3rd idea would be to take a different route for a career. I'd pick something in the medical field still, but my heart is in nursing. I love it, I love my program, I love my clinicals, etc. I could do this for the rest of my life, and I'd really like to if I can make it through.
I guess this turned more into a rant than a question. Any tips or comments are welcomed and appreciated. *Positive thoughts, positive thoughts, positive thoughts, I can do this. Right?*