I am 37 years old and just started graduate school in psychology 6 months ago. I had always wanted to get my masters but due to marriage and 3 kids have not been able to until now. The program is very competitive and I was one of only 12 candidates chosen. So, I should feel honored to be in this program. But, my heart is not in it like I thought it would be. I worked so hard to get in, and now I'm not sure I want to do this.
My mother is a nurse (RN with masters), my only 2 aunts are nurses (RN's with masters), one brother is a nurse, my other brother is a doctor, my father is a doctor, my SIL is a doctor. Basically, my entire family is in the medical field. My mother always wanted for me to be a nurse, but I always resisted the idea. I was very rebellious, and our relationship was not a good one. So, I am thinking that perhaps I was really meant to be a nurse and just resisted the idea due to my feelings toward my mother. Now, that our relationship has improved, I am actually open to the idea. I feel like I know so much already just growing up and spending so much time with nurses and doctors that I think I would be a really good nurse.
How do I know if that is the path I should take? If it is, how do I deal with the embarassment of being so wishy washy with my life at 37
