I had switched units from cardiac critical care. Right now I have been working on a general surgery unit with tele's for the last 3 weeks. It's a small unit, very nice too. Not as stress-filled with my new preceptor. She is very good at directing me at all of the things I need to do without putting me down. Trust me, I see I am slow. To hear it would really blow my confidence level through the core of the earth. One day, when I feel competent, I would look back and laugh, I know it.
Don't worry, I feel incompetent too. I don't know how long it'll be until I feel competent. You are not alone. What I do is try to figure out what the other nurses do in situations that I commonly run into. I have trouble with mainly IVs, and documentation. I'm afraid I might hang a bag the wrong way. I'm afraid of making a medication error. I'm also afraid of not documenting enough, to the point and including everything that needs to be mentioned.
So I lean on my preceptor and other nurses for questions and ask what they would write, what they would do, or just double check with my preceptor before running ahead with my tasks.
Hey, if my orientation has to be extended because I still feel like I am not ready, then so be it. I'd rather look dumb than kill a patient and lose my license.
Also, if I am off orientation, I hope that the other nurses will help answer my questions, and offer self when I need help. It's tough being independent, takes time, eventually my newly learned knowledge will align itself and take flight. I'll take my place as the new nurse and become my very own independently skilled nurse one day.
Today, I was digging through my stuff and found a paper on bible promises that a friend made me a week ago. The reading was very soothing. The website gives promises to personal questions such as: "What if I'm not smart enough?" or "I'm too tired," etc.
Here is the website that was on the page:
Bible Universe -The Ultimate Bible Resource
Trust me, it's reassuring.