I've posted before about my husband being terminally ill and complications that have come up, but this is the worst it has every been. Currently in ICU with ARDS and sepsis, placed on dialysis yesterday. On a vent, paralytic, the whole works.
Miraculously he has been showing signs of improvement. CXR went from a complete white out to having distinguishable upper lobes, heart, ET. That was amazing. Has been running a PEEP of 20. Went in this morning to a stunned looking pulmonologist telling me that the lungs are regaining some elasticity so they got the PEEP down to 8. (PTL!)
I have been glued to his bedside but am home tonight as I had nobody to take care of our 5 year old. Besides she is desperate for some mommy time and vice versa. I was actually sleeping peacefully and his brother called and woke me up. Couldn't go back to sleep and felt God telling me to get on here and get as many prayers as possible going so that dh can get over the hump. My brother in law is an atheist but I continue to witness to him about God in my life and God's ability to heal if it is in his will.
Please, all you that can pray, please help me out on this one. His name is Dan and I love him more than anything. He had not made a decision for the Lord before he was intubated so that is a big reason for wanting him to wake up and have one more chance.
Thanks in advance to all. You guys are wonderful support.
I've been reading your posts from the beginning. You have been through a lot. And you are a very, very strong person, Our Lord have given you strength and courage to get you through this stressful situations. I wish you good luck on the NCLEX-LPN. I wish you all the best that life has to offer you now and more:) .:) :) :) :) :) :)
I did pass my boards...I still say it's because God changed my answers.
And I have been to 2 interviews at a eye surgery place, which means only days, no holidays, no weekends, no dying patients, only evenings, weekends and holidays to spend with my little darling. They are supposed to make their final decision next week.
I'll have to drop out of school (my classes are day and I hate them anyway), and then probably forego the RN program (if I even was going to get accepted. Won't know for 4 more weeks.)
Any thoughts, friends?
PS...somebody needs to win the lottery so we can all get together and meet. I could not have made it through this without your support. I know I've said "thank you" before, but I really really mean it.
Joey- I am SO PROUD of you! You made it! God wants you as a nurse for sure. And you have life experences to draw on that can be helpful to your patients. Nothing dealt with and/or learned is ever wasted. Your job prospect sounds great! If this is where God wants you, you'll get that job. As far as going for your RN, you've been through a lot in the last few months. Maybe you should give yourself a break, take a deep breath and get back on a sound footing. I think that spending some quality time with your DD would be good for both of you. When you feel ready you can always go back for your RN. All IMHO of course. I've often had you and DD in thoughts and prayers. Keep us posted. We really care.
I've followed this thread just prior to Dan's going home to be with Jesus. I am thankful that you passed your boards. I thank God for you and your courage to "let it all hang out" in this time of profound grief (and concurrent joy) in your life. You definitely have a lot of "cyber love" as well as people at your church. All I can say is, "Wow!"
As far as your job quest goes, you will receive the best position considering your location and your dd. Don't give up trying to get into the RN program, even if you do wait a bit. My heart goes out to you and JoEllen, and my prayers are for your continued strength. You have been an inspiration to all of us who have read your "journal".
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I am so happy for you! As far as advice...............it sounds like a good job with the right hours for you. I would take it. Just put school off for a little while. Your 1st job will take all of your energy, and is enough to take on for now. Take a year to get used to it, and stabilize your life after all you have been through. Then - get your tusch back in school after that. I am really happy you passed.
oooooooooooooooooh joey, atta girl!!!!!!!!!! seeing you pass the boards merely serves to reaffirm my belief in the good Lord. there was no way He was going to let you down as you're going to be one fantastic nurse with soooooooooo much to offer your patient population. your strength and spirit never cease to amaze me, never!!! you are one incredible woman!!!
i did pass my boards...i still say it's because god changed my answers.
and i have been to 2 interviews at a eye surgery place, which means only days, no holidays, no weekends, no dying patients, only evenings, weekends and holidays to spend with my little darling. they are supposed to make their final decision next week.
i'll have to drop out of school (my classes are day and i hate them anyway), and then probably forego the rn program (if i even was going to get accepted. won't know for 4 more weeks.)
any thoughts, friends?
ps...somebody needs to win the lottery so we can all get together and meet. i could not have made it through this without your support. i know i've said "thank you" before, but i really really mean it.
congratulations!!!! amazing job in the face of what you have been going through! way to go!!:
I just scheduled my 3rd interview for that job. That was after talking to the doctor on the phone and answering several questions. I don't know what more they could possibly ask me! (He said I sounded like "an absolute delight" on the phone. Awwww!)
I'm pretty sure I'm not going to be accepted into the RN program this time around. (a little birdie told me)
So that's all that's going on here. Trying to clean my house. It is amazing, completely--totally--utterly amazing how filthy a house can get with a 5 year old, a sick/dying husband, and a year of nursing school, plus an indoor german shepherd.
Thanks Kwality. I know that people continue to think about me and pray for me. But I didn't want to keep posting in case some people were getting tired of me.
I did not get that job. I interviewed with the doc and he seemed to love me, but said that someone else I interviewed with didn't feel the same warm and fuzzies for me. He wanted me to re-interview with everyone all over, but I never heard back. I felt it was hokey anyway. Why force someone to hire/'supervise me if they don't like me. That's just setting me up for failure. And I think I would have been bored (but would have suffered silently for my little girl.
I missed the RN program by 24 points. I have not given up hope yet. (Haven't we learned that about me--I hold out hope when all hope is gone) I feel that if God wants me to be an RN, He will make a way. He can change the hearts of those that have been accepted or whatever. So I'm just hanging out. I have 7 weeks left of the co-req classes I was taking for the RN program, and I'm sure the decision will be more clear for me by then. May God continue to bless you all.
seeing you pass the boards merely serves to reaffirm my belief in the good Lord. there was no way He was going to let you down as you're going to be one fantastic nurse with soooooooooo much to offer your patient population. your strength and spirit never cease to amaze me, never!!! you are one incredible woman!!!
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Hello Joey,
I've been reading your posts from the beginning. You have been through a lot. And you are a very, very strong person, Our Lord have given you strength and courage to get you through this stressful situations. I wish you good luck on the NCLEX-LPN. I wish you all the best that life has to offer you now and more:) .:) :) :) :) :) :)