I am real conflicted about posting this because I'm embarrassed and afraid of the answers that I'll get, but I figure that being honest with myself and my situation and it will be better for me in the long run, I hope. Here it is:
I attended a private college straight out of high school and was and average student in my first two years, earning around a 2.5 g.p.a. towards a liberal arts degree. However, in my third year of college I lost my focus and direction and failed all of my classes, all from not attending. I was clinically depressed at the time - I would sleep most of the day and rarely leave my apartment. I was subsequently suspended from school and went home. I didn't even know what depression was at the time(I was confused, sad, and alone but didn't know why) but I have come to understand it through talk and drug therapy, and I can cope with it now much more maturely than I did a number of years ago. I've been rebuilding my life slowly. While at home I started working in a group home for mentally handicapped individuals and found a calling in health care. A lot of my friends were encouraging me to become a nurse and I began to see that nursing fits my personality type perfectly.
My whole point is that since I failed all of my classes in my third year of college, bringing my overall gpa down to under a 2.00, It's been impossible to get my academic career back on track because most schools won't accept a gpa that low (and I don't blame them.) My circumstances are not really unique as there are many students who drop/fail out of school, and I understand that there is no good reason for a school to accept me since I haven't proven anything. I have taken classes since that time and have received A's in every class, but it's just not enough.
I have a real fear that I will never be able to live down my mistakes and pursue a career in nursing. I am determined to become a nurse, but I worry that it's just blind determination that isn't realistic and will cause a lot of disappointment when my goal doesn't work out. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.
Sorry for the length!