Hi! This is my first post. I am new here. seeing all the posts about bullying comforts me a lot.
I also currently left a job because if a charge nurse who bullied me. I have been a nurse for 6 years. I have loved the job and the workplace before. I was even part of the committees. There is this charge nurse who doesn't like me and ignores what I say. I tried being cross trained to a more specialized area a year before I quit. I even organized the the cross training process and worked with. The director of the service line ( group of different departments) was amazed by my organization skills. When I did not perform as well as expected in my cross training( it was only for 3 weeks, and in the process I had a back injury) when I returned to my floor, the bullying began. She wrote me up anonymously, The management said I had weak follow through and punished me by not giving me critical patients without my knowledge. When I asked the nurse manager about this, and I asked what are the points I missed and how I can improve on, all she said was she cannot remember the exact moment I did something wrong because it was so long ago. And to improve, she just said, "just wow us". When I asked the other charge nurse who I thought was a friend what I should do, all she said was I should shadow another nurse and she said "some of us are born with critical thinking skills, but some people like you, well, you have to learn them. I was so upset I had anxiety, insomnia, I was irritable with my family...I am also in school for degree in a good nursing school, so I know I'm super stupid right? Two doctors told me I was their favorite nurse to work with. My manager said everyone likes me. I had an above average level in my team player skills in my last evaluation. It was awful.
I started looking for jobs and I got two offers by two hospitals. I quit last month. Now, I start in my new job. I'm happy I left, but I'm sad at the same time because I will miss some good people. And I am scared I'm going to be bullied all over again. I am now so scared I plan to duck my head and just do my job and go home on my new job rather than try to get more proactive.
Sorry for such a long post. I am so glad there is a place to express our feelings and to be encouraged to try harder again and not give up.
