Bleak Week

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Specializes in Psych, M/S, Ortho, Float..

For the first time in a long time, I'm not liking the run up to Christmas. I work psych and a patient attempted suicide the other day. Pt will be OK but I'm still carrying it around. Wasn't my pt, but I responded to the Code Blue. On top of that, my uncle has been made palliative and he is out of town so my Dad will be going out to see him. My brother is overseas, and it looks like I will be solo for Christmas. Being single at this time of year is a new one for me. Not sure that I approve.

Guy at work was flirting with me, but it turns out he is currently in a relationship. No thanks!!

A couple of women at work are dealing with ill family members so it just seems like the misery is following me around.

I will get over this and I will get my tree up and decorated in time, but right now, it just bites.

On the positive side, I have 4 days off and an old flame will be coming into town and he is currently single. I'm also having a party on the weekend after Christmas. So there is hope that it will all work out.

Thanks for listening.

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Specializes in med/surg and Tele.

Awww :( Keep your hopes up. I know the holidays can be hard when you are by yourself. But think of this. If you have good friends that love you and surround yourself with warm hearted people then you can do anything. Keep your chin up Chica, oh and for the flame have some FUN FUN FUN ;)

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Specializes in Psych, M/S, Ortho, Float..

Thanks Tampa,

Appreciate the good wishes.

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So sorry............. sometimes life is just.... hard.

Here's hoping you can embrace your singleness this Christmas (and all the possibilities it holds!) and find a measure of peace.

(((((((((( hugs )))))))))).

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Specializes in Med-surg ICU, Adult psych.

I hear you - sounds like an incredibly tough spot right now.

I've found that when I'm having a hard time letting something go that writing it down and then getting rid of it, either flushing it or burning it helps.

I hope the blahs pass quickly, and that your old flame helps to brighten the season for you :yeah:

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Specializes in Psych, M/S, Ortho, Float..

Had a good night's sleep and I am feeling better.

Thanks everyone.

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Specializes in LTC, Med-SURG,STICU.

I am glad that you are feeling better. I hope you have a happy Christmas.

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Specializes in telemetry, ortho, med-surg.

I am glad you feel better, too! I usually have to work extra hard to keep my spirits up this time of year. I try to think of at least five things I am grateful for everyday.

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To the OP - Our pastor's sermon today was a sort of humorous and rant-type look at Christmas and how the media has made everyone feel inadequate during the Christmas season unless you have a PERFECT family, a PERFECT time, etc.

How would you feel if you were Mary and you just had the baby out of wedlock in a barn full of stinky animals! How would you feel if you were Joseph and you KNEW (since an angel told him) that the baby that's not yours is the Son of God and you had zero money so you had to put him in a feeding trough where barnyard animals feed!

You think YOU'RE having a bad Christmas? Think about the people in the original Christmas. :)

Yours (or mine) doesn't sound that bad does it?

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I've been in a similar position as you. I'm not close to my family at all, I've been single much of my adult life, and have spent most of the holidays in my twenties (all of them!) by myself. It can be lonely and depressing. Something that I found to be helpful was to tell myself that the holiday was just another day in the grand scheme of things. I would "skip" the holiday and just not celebrate it. After awhile it didn't bother me as much, and now that I"m in a relationship (with a guy who also spent a lot of time skipping holidays) we don't even really celebrate holidays so it worked out for me. This may or may not help you depending on your personality type...

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Specializes in Psych, M/S, Ortho, Float..

ChuckE, the first Christmas would have been awful. Except maybe for the angels singing. That would have been cool.

To all of you, a big hug and thank you all. Today was a better day and has given me hope that all is not quite as bad as it seemed last night at this time.

Called 911 when I was at the grocery store today. Guy had a fist full of meds and was quite sedated. Paramedics arrived and I felt like I had saved this guy from freezing to death. All good. Then I got on the bus and a drunk tried to kiss me. He got off at the liquor store a few stops down the line. Small blessings count.

Merry Christmas everyone and may all the kisses not be drunk, sloppy ones!!

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