I have been working agency LPN (new grad) through RN school. I have had the pleasure to work on a wonderful unit for the last six months that loves me and wants me to work there when I graduate. The charge nurse even went to far as to walk my resume down to HR.
I was giving report to the next nurse and she knew the patient was on Heparin protocol b/c he was on a drip. I didn't know he was on hep protocol. It was not on the MAR or the Kardex. The heparin order was on the MAR, which I was following. But nothing about an actual protocol was there. She knew b/c she had recieved the info in her orientation there, which, with agency, I don't get. Not that that is an excuse. I just thought he was on a heparin drip b/c he was post-cardiac surgery. Not to mention, as an LPN, I'm not even supposed to touch heparin drips and should have tried to give the patient to an RN( even though they never actually take pt's from me--which is another story).
She completely flipped on me. I took it with a smile in silence and fixed my mistake by checking the protocol sheet against the PTT. No changes needed to be made per protocol. The patient was recieving the correct amount of heparin. The patient was safe. I understand she was worried he wouldn't have been. But I honestly didn't even think the hospital HAD a hep protocol. Potassium I know and use appropriatly. And what if she were right?? I could have killed someone! I'm seriously freaked.
She ended up tearing me a new one. I acted professionally and expained that I was unaware of the protocol but will always be aware now.
Found out this am when I was supposed to go in, she complained about me and got me on the "black list" of the hospital. I can't work there anymore. I am so shocked that this honest mistake has erased 6 months of hard, mistake-free, work. I got along with everyone on this unit. They even wanted me to play for their softball team. I am so angry!
Does anyone understand this?? Does one mistake mean I am such a failure as a nurse that I can't even get another shift to prove myself again?? My confidence is shot and I'm about to grad RN school and start a new grad program.I feel like I don't even want to work b/c I might screw something up. Any suggestions--aside from hunting that old stale nurse down and beating her with a rubber hose!