My first pedi death - page 3

by canesdukegirl Guide | 8,538 Views | 22 Comments

I have been a nurse for a long time, and have seen my fair share of traumas, deaths, and unspeakable disasters. I witnessed my first pedi death a couple of weeks ago during a trauma. Usually, it takes me a couple of weeks... Read More


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    It might be helpful to fall back on what you know...what has helped with tragedy in the past?
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    I feel like a terrible person now. In two months, I have seen three pedi codes, and all three died. I don't feel traumatized. It's sad, and I feel sorry for the families, but...I don't have nightmares, I don't feel any worse than I do with any other code. We tried our best, they didn't make it, end of story for me. I think about their families and siblings often, and how they will cope, but I guess I feel that life is not a guarantee at any age, and that any time we get is precious.
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    Quote from Racer15
    I feel like a terrible person now. In two months, I have seen three pedi codes, and all three died. I don't feel traumatized. It's sad, and I feel sorry for the families, but...I don't have nightmares, I don't feel any worse than I do with any other code. We tried our best, they didn't make it, end of story for me. I think about their families and siblings often, and how they will cope, but I guess I feel that life is not a guarantee at any age, and that any time we get is precious.
    This thread made me feel the same way. Children die regularly in my line of work and I honestly forget that it's something that most people find absolutely horrifying. I had a patient who died a few weeks ago and when I was speaking with her Case Manager from the oncology clinic about it, he said "I'm just glad that she was in the hospital where they could control her pain" and I said "I'm glad they stopped the experimental treatment and signed the DNR in time." I thought if anyone outside of the pediatric oncology world overheard this conversation, they'd think we were completely heartless... here we were, 2 nurses who had known and cared about this child, sharing what we were glad for in her death.


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