I graduated in 2010 with an ASN, I knew what the job market looked like. I knew I would have to "do my time" in an alternative work environment. Two and a half years later I have a 14 month wonderful son and long term care experience under my belt. I was excited and scared in the beginning, I was so appreciative to have my job. I have been supporting my husband while he finished grad school. I graduated nursing school with honors, excited to come into the world of nursing. I am so depressed going to work every day knowing I need more out of my career. A doctor stat is called at my facility and my heart jumps as a glimmer of what I loved in nursing school comes to life again. I learn a new skill here and there and hold on to it for the life of me.I find myself browsing allnurses, unable to read about those RNs talking about their new exciting acute care jobs because it hurts too much. Turning away from nursing magazines because my yearning for more is too frustrating I see student nurses come through our halls, look at them with a mix of jealousy and awe. I know I need to move on but I just can not catch a break having been looking very seriously since OCT,I now feel like a starlet trying to make it big in Hollywood. Even my VP of nursing has told me "girl you need acute care, you would be awesome...just keep applying." It has gotten to the point where I am embarrassed to say I am STILL looking for a new job to those always asking. I do not have many more days of PTO left, taking off work to shadow, interview only to have my emails and calls ignored for weeks at a time. I wish they would just say NO, pulling the band aid off quickly and swiftly. Not dodging me for weeks at a time. I look at coworkers who have made it into the hospital and wonder what do they have that I do not. I feel my application is sent to some cyber space with no one on the other side. I have been on quite a few interviews, mostly through connections hearing very positive feedback but it is just not happening. Either it is a "budget issue," or my ltc experience, my lack of a Bachelors, or maybe it is just me! I always hear the same feedback, "you did great in the interview...we really liked you but..." I do have a scheduling issue with some aspects of the weekend but countless of other friends have made it work. I have enrolled this week for my RN-BSN online. I am discouraged, sad, and just needed to vent.