A little history about me...I've been licensed for about a year and a half now. I started in ped homecare because I wasn't able to find a job, but finally was hired by a LTC pediatric facility. The first week I had classroom training which went fine. The next week I began with my receptor. My first day the nurse ignored me, didn't teach me much at all and I couldn't find her most of the time. Second day I had a different preceptor because mine wasn't in who put it me with one patient and I did ok. I've now completed 5 shifts and my last shift I had 4 patients and it was definitely a struggle and I wasn't able to do all the work myself because I had meetings. As far as patient care and documentation goes I feel that I'm doing a good job, being a newbie. Well I had a meeting with my nurse manager abd she was extremely unhappy because I'm not with my preceptor enough. She said that I'm supposed to be glued to her hip. She was pretty mad. She is not a nice person, has taking a dislike to me for no reason that I know of. I assumed my preceptor didn't want me to follow her everywhere because she never tells me where she's going, and instead will tell me what to do and not follow me. No one ever told me this. It seems like no one likes me on the unit, as hard as I try to reach out and be nice. I'm also expected to take 7 patients (a whole load) on my 7th shift. Does this sound a little too much for a new grad? Does anyone have any suggestions as to what I should do? My manager gives me dirty looks, is known to be a perfectionist, very hard on her employees. And a bit neurotic. I couldn't live with myself if I got fired from my first job! It's not looking good the way she speaks to me. I am trying so hard and I feel like it's for nothing.