Help!
I'm a fairly new grad. Been out of school about 18 months. this is my second job. First was right out of ADN program to L&D. Was working nights and long story short I couldn't hack it (combined with divorce, death of a parent, single mom). So a friend recommended me for my current job in a outpatient PACU. With virtually no med/surg or PACU experience, I was shocked but elated when they offered me the job. No nights, weekends or holidays. GREat pay. Been there about 9 months. I work .6 making the same salary as I did full time in L&D/nights.
Seems dreamy, huh? Well here's the deal. I am the only new grad in the group of 13 nurses. Every one works .6 or less. Plus many per diems. Most have at least 10 years ICU, CC or ER experience. Most of my fellow nurses are very friendly; some actually mentoring, but most are very resentful that I am there due to my inexperience (I didn't do my time on a MS unit or work CC like they did).
I had my review yesterday (a written, peer review by all 13 nurses; standard in this facility) and most said they were frustrated regarding my lack of knowledge and questions regarding basic nursing skills (IV's, irrigating a foley, EKG's). They didn't understand why my mgr. hired me when there are tons of experienced nurses avail. One even said she didn't feel safe closing with me. OK, I know I'm new, but I am not incompetant. I do everything I can do to learn new skills, ask tons of questions (it probably frustrates them). I"m not one of those "know it all newbies". I'm 40 years old, I have some common sense. Another nurse said I'm not helpful to other RNs. If you knew me, you'd know this was untrue. I'm the new kid on the block, I am always offering my self to the other nurses. I know how to play the game, believe me. Short of ***-kissing, I do what I can to prove myself. That's just some of the negative comments. I knew my review would be poor reflecting my inexperience but the hostility and resentment conveyed by my manager (of my fellow nurses) was really shocking to me. Basically, they want me out.
I might want to add that the last two hires (despite their 20+ years experience) also got hazed for other reasons. Both left crying after their reviews. Two previous employees were actually harrassed by two RNs who didn't like them and quit. Can you say hostile work environment?
My mgr. suggested I prove myself by asking everyone to let me care for their patients if it's a new case I'm unfamiliar with, taking some CE courses where ever I could, etc. Do what ever I can to up my skill level and prove to them I'm more experienced. And basicially kiss up. It's as if it's a strict sorority I have to be hazed thru to enter.
So, some of you may say leave this place. I just can't. The pay and hrs. are too good and I feel on principle I can't leave. Any tips on survival in this situation? Please don't say go work on a MS floor. I can't (due to childcare limitations).
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