Some of you old enough to recognize the structure of the title (Can this ... be saved?) might be amused. Maybe not. I come from a family that makes jokes when the circumstances are dire, and mine are dire right now.
I have to say, I shot myself in the foot.
I was recently fired. For writing another nurse's initials on a MAR. I did it on impulse, to plug the hole; I had nothing to personally gain from this action, and everything to lose.
I've had very few nursing jobs since graduating in 2009 after (oh, how ironic) a stellar academic career: two jobs were seasonal and two were at substandard places that did not do things the right way. At the first of those two places that did not do things the right way, I recognized it, felt that my license was in danger, gave my notice and kept my wits about me until I finished my two weeks. Then I reported them to the Department of Public Health and the Division of Industrial Accidents and got satisfaction from what was found.
The second time around, I felt more desperate to keep the job, and didn't pay attention to the danger signs that I was becoming overwhelmed. Instead of rising above it all, I allowed myself to be dragged down into the muck.
Both places I worked at filled holes in MARs at the end of the month. And in both places, although an attempt was made to get the nurse on shift to plug the hole, sometimes it was not possible and the hole was plugged, one way or another, by someone.
Is there anyway I can redeem myself?