I have reading this forum for a few months now. I got addicted to Norco after being managed for migraines. I went to work impaired and was discovered. I went to rehab and intensive outpatient treatment. Despite seeing a counselor weekly, I still have so much shame. I have chosen not to return to work for at least a year. This is taking a chance that I will not be able to find work later. However, going back to my old job just for the sake of having a job is not an option. The nurses that I work with are very judge mental and thrive on gossip and tearing other nurses down. I feel like a criminal as I participate in TPAPN. Any advice welcome or just sharing experiences would be helpful. I don't talk to any of my friends, I feel so guilty and ashamed. I have been a nurse for 25 years and am afraid that this is the end of my career.