I toed the line for over 6 years--observed urine screens at $77 a pop and on and on and haven't had a nursing job since 2010. My license has no discipline now but the history, the "mark," I guess, is keeping me from getting one of the very few nursing jobs
in my area. My sentence was for 5 years of probation but it dragged on for over 6 because I couldn't find a nursing job after becoming unemployed in 2010.
It seems like I have been discarded by nursing even though I admitted my crime and served my sentence...and then some.
I cannot in my wildest dreams IMAGINE forgetting to submit paperwork I was so scared of screwing up (for all the good it did me). In my case, I would have to be impaired to miss any
requirement that was presented to me.
I wonder if I will ever
be able to forgive myself for my addictive transgressions if I am never able to get a nursing job. It is hard for me to keep the rejection of others from becoming my rejection of myself.
I have been completely clean and sober since Dec 2004 and I wonder sometimes if it has been worth it (at least as far as employment goes). If anyone who has a nursing job whines, they have no idea what they are talking about. Period.