I'm a senior nursing student and I had a bad experience being a patient last year. I went for a septoplasty & graft placement for my nose. I was under general anesthesia, which I had never had before. When waking up in the PACU, my mind was the first thing that turned back on (my head was still extremely heavy and I couldn't open my eyes yet). I was shivering heavily and I noticed that I felt that my heart rate was slowing down. My mind being foggy, I tried to count it but I didn't have any watch or clock to my disposal.
Suddenly, my RR slowed down so much that I felt I couldn't breathe anymore. My eyes sprung open and I yelled "help, I can't breathe, help!!" all over the unit. I had never had a panic attack before but it felt as if I was going to stop breathing – it's very frightening.
(Days past this incident I realized that this is the general feeling many patients get when they have a cardiovascular event, or asthma/COPD patients).
A nurse standing about 10 feet away from my bed was looking at me with a blank expression. After a 5 sec or so, another nurse ran over to me and helped calm me down to breathe normally. I couldn't believe I freaked out because I'm normally not a neurotic or anxious person. The nurse who was looking at me and doing nothing earlier slowly walked over. She told me she was my nurse. I asked her why she didn't come to help me. She said that she wasn't obligated to help me, and she thought I wasn't in real danger. There wasn't a flicker of sympathy or caring in her attitude and facial expression. In my foggy state of mind, I was like "OK.." I didn't understand.
In the rest of my stay in the PACU she let me to walk back and forth by myself to the bathroom, in which I basically wobbled the entire time.
Later when I came home I became furious. In a very vulnerable moment, in which I had no critical thinking abilities being post-anesthesia, this nurse hurt my feelings personally and my trust pretty badly. I can't believe someone like that is employed by a high ranking hospital. I sent a complaint to the hospital, and they said she was a float nurse and they could not find out what her name was.
I try to take this experience to the hospital I precept in. Whenever I feel a bit annoyed with a patient, I think of this incidence, which I wish on no-one, and turn my thoughts around. Patients are in one of their most vulnerable states in the hospital and they at the very least deserve quality care and a genuine smile.